|Oct 05 2009|
...by writing in my diary here. I recommend it to a lot of people then realize I don't utilize it enough myself. I was just telling a friend in my drug addiction support group how muchit helps to write about how you are feeling. It is even better when people comment on what you have written. I am not very interesting or popular I guess because I rarely get comments but still it helps me to get things out. So as for the drug addiction support group I am happily making tons of new friends. The people there are amazing. I have been blessed in so many friendships. I am honored to be a group leader there.
As for the hypothyroidism group I have been lax once again in replying to post. I have at least fifteen messages in my inbox right now. I will definitely get on those right away. I know people worry when I am not around. I have my two year old granddaughter every weekend plus those two days are the only ones where I get to see my husband all week. He is once again working two jobs to support us. I am seeing my job counselor also to see if I can get a job. I am willing to bag groceries at this point. Anything so I can get my husband back.
Now the bipolar support group. I haven't been there in ages as I found I was very easily triggered by the people who are depressed or manic. I am a mania addict and kept wanting to go off my meds. I do miss the people I had become friends with but like everything I overdid it in the forum and it hurt me rather than helped. I do think I might go by and check in though. let people know I am alive. Recently I have been wanting to stop my meds though. Money is so tight and the only place we can really cut corners I have already done. I cut my internet down to the economy package and take great care not to waste electricity or water. I plan all my meals and and cut out red meat. Now the only thing left is to stop seeing my therapist and stop the meds. I am kind of afraid of what might happen but am willing to try it. I went thru a mixed episode about three months ago and it passed within three weeks without altering my meds at all. Except for the voices I think I can deal with this pretty good. Maybe I could medicate on an as need basis. Anyway here is a big (((((hug to anyone))))) who takes the time to read this. Even if I don't get one comment I know I may have helped one friend see that writing things down can help. Thanks friends!
I almost forgot
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