sometimes i wonder

here i find myself again. and i'm not sure exactly why. this site and these people have been rummaging about in my head for the last month or so is probably the best reason i can describe. i supposecuriousity is also a factor. when i gave up posting many many moons ago i think i felt i was being consumed be this and other things and i needed time for different things, mainly school. but now i find myself with those old feelings of low-rent desperation and mildly deformed loneliness. is this the answer? i don't know. but it can't hurt to check in for awhile and find out who's still hanging around. sort of feels like coming home. in a way that coming home has never felt like.