So I'm bipolar! Well, that explains a lot!

This time of year always finds me a little depressed or stressed.  I don't necessarily feel really depressed this year, but little stresses have been creeping in on me day to day.  I get these little crying bouts for no good reason.  Today I cried about my birthday.  My friends didn't call to invite me to an informal weekly gathering.  It really isn't an inv

The Abilify is working.  All is good in the universe.  I am having less panic and less racing thoughts.  I actually feel like I can get things done again.  I think there is going tobe hope!

I was taken off my Paxil a while back and felt great.  Then my doc threw me for a loop and told me that Invega could be elevating my prolactin levels.  Well, after a blood test, it was determinedthat this was the case.  He put me on Tegretol and it was hell.  Now I am on Abilify.  I wish I could say more, but I don't even know where to start.  Abilify is better, b

The doctor upped my meds a few weeks ago because I was still feeling depressed.  I'm starting to feel a little better.  I just want to be able to get out of bed in the mornings and feelmotivated to do things.  I was getting a bit listless and apathetic.  It makes me wonder what "normal" feels like.  When I was first diagnosed and the meds had kicked in I f

How do you know when your meds stop working? Lately I have been on the downturn of the spectrum. It is getting harder to get out of my warm bed and go to this never ending project. WhenI get to work, I feel like I am spinning my wheels. All of the things I used to do, I have been afraid to challenge. I'm lacking confidence and I tend to just putter around the jobsite helping keep things o

Well, I've been doing considerably better, with a little anxiety here and there.  The project we are working on has had a lot of snags and it is slowing us down a bit.  This house is just one problem after another.  I find solstice in the fact that we are making all of these issues right for the customer.  I just wish we could get a break from time to time on this stuff.

I think I handled myself pretty well today considering all of the excitement.

I had to do a lot of running around to get things together for my DUI assessment that I need for court.   For those of you curious or just tuning in, I got my DUI before I found out about my bipolar disorder when I was really falling off the deep end of what I didn't know at the time was a severe m

Oh how I do not like Sunday nights.  We had a nice Sunday afternoon.  We went to eat at Red Lobster with my brother and his wife and my parents.  It was nice.

Then the dreaded Sunday night comes along.  I don't know why but I always get anxious on Sunday nights.  It's like the end of the weekend and it makes me nervous.  Even though we are going to a

Well, I am still safely averting the mania.  I felt like my old self today.  While Michael went to finish the job with the flooring, I took the guys to the kitchen remodel for the morningand we all met at the flooring job after lunch.  I was a little impatient, but nothing like my manic self.  I've always been a bit impatient to say the least.

We touched up the pai

Well, I am not feeling as manic today.  I started a new project and it made me feel much better.  We pulled paneling all day and finalized plans for the spaces we are working on.  Theguys were very understanding again today.  I still noticed that I felt more talkative today but overall I felt much better.

Maybe one of my triggers is jobs coming to an end.  It is a

Oh boy,

It was one of those hypomanic days.  I was irritated by things all day.  Everything seemed to be moving in slow motion and anytime something would get in my way it bothered the heck out of me.

I was more aware of sights and sounds today too.  Things like the click of the button when I changed the radio station irritated me.  I didn't even realize thos

Well, I have just found this bipolar site and I have decided to keep a diary on my newly discovered bipolarness.  Right now I am feeling great!  Way better than I did a few months ago beforethe meds and the accident.   I was severely hopeless and depressed and now I feel much better.  I've become more productive and am getting a lot of things done that I had been pu