Snowi Babbles

yesterday i went to a memorial service the hosptial put on for women who had miscarriages or stillbirths. i cried my eyes out for my little Jayden. it was a nice service. the hosptial chaplin was there. i really was not impressed with him. two women who lost their babies spoke. we made ornaments and hung them on a tree outside. we also released balloons. i love doing that. my parents came and so did my husband. it was a really hard day. i cried alot. my husband cried too.

later in the day i took my husband to the cemtary so he could see where jayden is burried.

i went back to the cemtary today to talk to jayden alone cause i was still so sad today. i did not want to leave her i wished i could be with her.

a memorial service was nice but i have no problems rembering her. in a way i feel a goodbye service might be more bennifical except i don't want to say goodbye; i am just so tired of hurting so much.

mommy loves you Jayden!!!