Sleepytoenails

Wow! didn't realize that it has been so long since I last wrote. Days are going to get shorter which is terrible but am going to find some sun and warmth in November on a Caribbean cruise. Yay! Finishedthe Insanity workout in June and haven't done a single serious workout since. Hah! I claim burnout but really just don't feel like it. I know it helps depression but am exerting some kinda control by refusing to exercise. Twisted rationalizations as usual. Taking the Feminine Power Telecourse and found out that my False Belief is that "I am always alone." So, I interact with people in ways that just confirm and provide more evidence to that belief. Also, Robbins-Madanes Coaching training. Inspiring but of course frustrating that at times I think I can do so much and help other people and then at others just trying to make it through the day without giving up. He says that depression is something that we dwell in because it is a way of connecting with ourselves and that we can get ourselves into it because it is so familiar and comforting. And that we can just as easily decide to get out of it and choose to not be depressed. He claims he has never lost anyone to suicide that he talked to. Such power! Sigh. So, here we are and it is late and time to sleep. So excited to finally get a deck after 10 years! Also happy to be coming out of a deeper depression that blasted me these last 3 weeks. More drugs, oh my. We should all buy stock in pharmaceutical companies because they will never go out of demand. Best wishes (to you reading) for some joy in your day. Thanks for letting me share my rambling.