skyswts diary

I'm sorry you lost your job, but you did express there was too much stress. When i have lows i disassociate myself from my family and stay in my room, fortunately it does not last long, usually only for a day, guess my meds work well. You have found a very special place here at mdj, the members are all very understanding and you hearing first-hand from others who live with bp too. You will not feel alone.

I'm sorry to hear that you have lost the job. I have lost 7 jobs over the past 2 years for the same reason. I remember not knowing how the other people could deal with those levels of stress and stick it out for x number of years. My goal at the time was to be able to stay in a job for a year. I wanted it so much. The last job I actually really loved, although it was really stressful, I thrived on the workloads because I was good at what I was doing and always felt rewarded. But then the problems with the coworkers started and that was way too much for me to handle. I eventually felt like everyone in the office hated me despite the fact that when I was out of the office, interacting with clients, I was respected and liked. It wasn't enough. I couldn't detach myself from those intense emotions. 8 months and I left. It was so awful as well, the way it ended, as usual. Sometimes I look back and feel like a total failure. If only I'd been able to control my feelings and behave like a normal person I'd still have a job I love. But it was a learning experience, it's made me realize what I love doing and what I'm good at. It's also helped me to identify what my issues are and how to deal with those people more effectively. I don't feel as bad about the other 6 jobs in between because I know it's not what I wanted. So perhaps you too can look it losing this job as a learning experience in that it's made you realize what you don't want in a job. You don't want an environment that's too stressful. And the lesson might also be, next time you see that something is not working, communicate it to the supervisor before it gets to the point that you can't handle it anymore. Again, I think we don't do this because we are petrified of losing things we've become attached to (jobs, mostly people). It's okay to walk away from a situation that isn't doing you any good if you feel that you've done everything to make it work for you. Good luck on your journey in finding a new job. Try to identify your talents. You will be happier in a job where you can showcase them.