I was good and called my mother on Mothers Day. She was not home so I left a message on her machine, This was about 11:00am. She never did call back. But she's always treated me this way. Like grippingI don't drive 45 minutes to see her, I DON'T HAVE A CAR. Even if I did gas is just way to high. I'm done.

I just found out my Uncle on my dads side of the family pasted April 30th. These people in my family are so uncaring, not to even tell me. My Granny has stopped eating. They try to get her to drink proteinshakes. That's not good. I've started looking in the Obits where I live cause they don't tell me anything. These people are really crazy. Then in the next breathe says Oh were going to have a family reunion in June , in Taylorsville. I don't have a car Mcfly. How do we get there? Then threw a fit over not one of her grand kids calling her on her bithday. If she hadn't alienated them or tried to control them they might have. Crazy old women.

Family still don't care, I guess I should just get over it. I'm thinking that once Granny does go to be with Pa , I'll just cut all ties with those people. All they do is get me upset, andI don't think they are worth my health. I want to see my son grow old and get married.

TODAY IS NOT A GOOD DAY. THE WEATHER IS NASTY! I'AM TRYING TO DEAL WITH MY GRANNY'S HEALTH AND JUST KNOWING SHE WILL BE LEAVING SOON DOESN'T HELP. I ALSO REALIZE I CANNOTSTOP HER DISEASE FROM TAKING HER. NO MORE THAN I CAN STOP MINE FROM HURTING ME. IT SAD TO FEEL I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER ANYTHING.