Day four on half-dosage, and I've had a very good sign.  I have begun to find positive solutions for the things that are triggering my anxiety.

Take, for instance, the constant visitsto my MySpace page by my ex-husband's current wife.  Even when I made the page private, she continued to visit every day, sometimes more than once a day.  I know this because of my visitor maps.  

I love maps, especially ones related to the digital realm.  I am a digital culture junkie, and I love seeing how one simple profile page can travel across the world and end up on a computer monitor in Africa.  It's fascinating to me, and I have grown very attached to my maps over the years.

 But there is a down-side as well.  These maps made this woman's obsession obvious.  IP addresses tell all.   So I had to make a decision.  Her constant visit were causing me anxiety.  After all, I just went through a court battle to get her husband, my former abuser, out of my life completely for good.  The last thing I need is her odd obsession with my life to interfere with my quest to be medication-free.

 So, I deleted the maps.  Not the easiest decision to make because as I said before, I love my maps.  But I was able to analyze the situation, recognize the problem, and take positive steps toward a solution.  In situations like these, someone needs to be the bigger person, the mature adult, and I was able to be that person on my own, without the aid of a full dose of Lexapro.  :))

 It's a baby step, I know, but finding positive solutions without being consumed by anxiety is a new thing for me, and I feel like I could do cartwheels right now.