It has been a hard couple of weeks for me.  I am really struggling with my depression and PTSD since my hospitalization about a month ago.  I feel I am making progress but it is slow and my family is becoming very frustrated with me.  I have not been able to find a job and everytime I start working on it I get so overwhelmed all I can do is cry or isolate myself.  This weekend my son had a date with a senior to her senior prom.  I was so proud of him, he looked so very handsome, but I still feel that he is rejecting me.  He won't talk to me about the event.  He talks to his mom about what his needs are.  I think he is embarassed of me.  I ask him if he is embarassed of me and of course he says no, but his actions act as if he is.  His date has a baby that is so adorable.  He is about 9 months old.  She said that we could baby sit him on the night of prom.  Well when it was time, she said he was sick or something and she did not want us to baby sit him.  He came to when we were taking pictures, and he did not seem sick at all.  He was taking pictures, laughing, etc.  I don't think she or Dustin wanted him over with me.  I don't know what to do.  My counselor says it will take time.  I don't think my heart can take it much longer.  I love my son so much, but he is hurting me so much.  I don't know, maybe I am just perceiving things that are not there, but they sure seem like they are to me and it hurts so badly.    They are a cute couple.  They are not dating at this point.  He has a different girlfriend, or so that's what he tells me sometime ago.  I am not really sure.  Again, he does not really tell me anything.  He does not trust me with any information.