I'm still so damn tired and every muscle in my body just aches from the top of my head muscles to the tip of my big toes....yes quite literally!

I have also discovered that I should neverever ever be late in taking that paxil they recently gave me in the morning......my poor husband. I feel so awful every time I have a melt down on him, but it's like I have no control and everything feels so completely magnified. On top of everything, he just quite smoking.

 I went to work for a short time this morning, we take turns answering phones in my office to help cut the cost out of having a secretary and it helps us keep a personal touch with our clients. Not one call, but the quiet was welcomed....It was 97 degrees today however though so when I went home I had very little desire to do much of anything. I did some light housecleaning and then realized I was getting really sleepy again and my body was starting to do it's achy thing again. I tried to lay down, but kids homework, questions and so on kept getting me up.

 Then my husband had a blow up with his mother, I will never understand how that woman can be so awful to such a sweet caring man(we live two 1/2 hours away, his father FORGOT to call him and tell him they were having a bbq for her birthday today and she was MAD AT HIM for not being there!)........made him feel like shit and then, of course, it started to rain on top of our heat wave so no bbq. I decided with the weather and the look of defeat on his face, I'd just go put dinner in the oven instead and let him having some quiet time to argue with her in his head.

 After doing so, I found a few quiet moments of my own to lay down on the couch under the air conditioner and promptly passed....right...out! I sooooo didn't mean to. Next thing I knew he was waking me up, startled the crap out of me too, and told me dinner was done and on the table. When I was able to get my bearings, I came in and we had a very nice...dry.....but tasty dinner. Then he told me to go back to bed.

I told him our room was too hot and he uttered the sweetest words a man can say, "honey, I put the extra air conditioner in our bedroom window a few hours ago, I just didn't want to wake you."

God I love him.....I slept for another several hours. Woke up to eat one half left over dried out rib so that I could keep another Doxy down to go with my 'itchy pill' and my topamax.

Maybe I'll see if he wants to go watch a  movie before I pass out again......he so deserves some snuggle time~