Ok, so it turns out I'm not so good at this whole promising myself to write on here every day.......especially when I push it the way I did over the weekend! WHAT WAS I THINKING???

The girlskept me up half the night and then I went and showed FOUR HOUSES on Saturday night after a busy day.....I have been just trying to recoop.

Not much else to tell though. I am still so tired. I have noticed a new symptom and that some of the old Lyme symtpoms are back or worse, like my spelling....it's TERRIBLE and I am having a really hard time thinking and editing my own writing. When I am tired, it' s tned thousand times worse.  It's quite embarrassing for someone who was the top of her journalism class at a priavate university with tons of scholarships and job offers from big name networks in Manhattan.....Editing has always been more ofa  passion, now it's just a bother and even if I see a mistake, I don't always feel like going back for it although I do try to be careful of them.  ONe of my new things is that I have this odd pressure on the top of my eye lids. I don't know if that's meds or lyme, the nurses at the infusion said it sounds more like another lyme symptom though.

My daughter joined me at the infusion center today. Instead of getting her head into the flkoating tv like before, she actually watched and paid attention this time. She said it kind of scared her, but she was glad she knew what was going on and understood more now. She's been so helpful. My son came in for a few seconds, they had dropped us and went to run errands but came back too early.........but then he askeed to wait outside. He is so afraid of it all, I felt bad for him, but I was glad  he saw, even if it scared him, is that mean? IS that selfish? I want him to understand. I wnat him to be less self centered. Not just for me, but for all the people int he world that are sick when he complains that he doesn't have more skateboards or the most expensive pair of shoes....I want himt o know there are more important things.

I got a bit sick when I was leaving. I felt dizzy and nauseated when I was leaving and I had a hard time walking. Tony went to get the car while I sat in a chair so I didn't have to walk and the kids were playing in the circle door thing....I can't think....it was driving me crazy! Finally I had to YELL. I was so upset ot have to yell, there, in that condition, are they kidding me! HOw could they do that there! I know they just don't udnerstand......but it upset me. Kyle sat down next to me and told the other kids to take a seat. He had a friend with him and they all sat immediately. He looked worried. He helped me to the car as I couldn't walk by myself, I was so dizzy. I felt better soon after, sometimes just right after I am done I get a little sick.

I'm still really tired now though and my eyes still hurt a bit and I'm still slightly dizzy but not as bad as before, at least I can walk now! Dinner is done, kids are fed and I have done more than enough chores for today, way more than I should have....Tony's been yelling at me to knock it off all day! I think maybe it's time for PJ's and a movie in bed.......