saddness

well, one of my single friends is really down.  she has a shitty mean mom...makes it hard for her and I feel for her cause her mom KNOWS what she is doing.  ugh.

no word from youngestboy.  did not expect any at all.  I have to get ready for two appointments: 1 is the Phy. Therapist for my IT band/piriformis muscle problem and the other is the Co-dependent for adult in the family drug abuse evaluation.  if i get in it is a 6 month program.  shit...another place I have to go spend time.   Time is getting away from me.  started Yoga Saturday.

Not sure if I will like Yoga.  too much breathing stuff you gotta do.  we will see, but I need to keep in shape! I cannot stand the fact I cannot even fricking walk on my treadmill a couple miles without it feeling worse, or NO improvement.   3 months now.   I have not exercised since last Thursday.  I hope no exercise as opposed to small amounts, will heal it...then I have to work my way back up. 

 It is also hard to see that people are being emotionally and psychologically abused by their spouses and that they are put in a position of needing to believe the liar.  I feel so awful for them, as I was there.  I see it, but it is a difficult decision to make to leave....because we owe them just one more chance...and then...the one chance turns to another chance, and then because we gave them more chances, they push the lines of our boundaries out beyond our control, and they are in control.   we expand our boundaries to meet THEIR needs.  Damn, I was there.  I see this in one of my friends.   I am so glad I am Not in Her SHOES anymore!  I feel her pain, though, and her anguish.