Why wear a ribbon?

"I have HSV 2." (brookeage77)

MDJunction to me

"MDJ gave me the chance to see that, in reality, I was not alone. It is my refuge. It means true understanding, shared knowledge, and support that is free of judgment. What I have received and given here is more powerful than I ever thought it could be. This place is all about love." (Cata)

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Robyn's crazy mind

I'm new to this, so I guess I'll just write when I feel up to it, and try to figure out what is going on with me!

Who Cares

Oct 28 2009

That's where I'm at,who cares? I don't want anyone to care about me,cuz the way I am now, I don't deserve it, can't respond to it. Only one to change this wretched life isme, and I have no motivation. I see no end to this despair. I hate every minute. I should be blasted to hell, considering all the blessings I have. And yet I can't feel or appreciate them. I just want to be done. My life has no purpose or meaning. I am worthless to all who love me.

Third day off Geodon, can't decide if I'm better or worse. No anxiety really for a few days. The depression is God awful. I don't even know why I'm writing, I just drivel the same misery. I really hate myself. Yet I don't change.

The end for now!

Previous diary posts by robynize:

Another Sunday gone by
Anxiety Saturday
Rough night

Friday is the same as every day
Still here
Dichotomy of my soul

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