Road to sanity is paved with rocks

I have been with my husband almost 16 years. I love him but really do not find him very supportive or understanding of my issues- he throws a lot of stuff in my face and we argue a lot. All I want at this point in my life is peace- but he does not believe that- I feel I am always getting prejudged, or punished, for past actions that I have been working so hard to get over.

 When I was growing up, I had one major guy all through high school- we were best friends, his family loved me, he was just my type, and we were together for years. When I left high school I met an older man, stayed with him 2 years. Then I went back to my high school love briefly- met my husband 2 months later, and that was it- never saw my old guy again.

  Well on facebook I have been friends with him for a couple of years- well we started messaging each other- now we are talking on the phone- it is like no time has passed, we can talk for hours- but I feel guilty- sort of but he makes me feel happy- my husband has not for a long time- I do not know that anything will come of it- we live 2000 miles apart- we will see...