return of thought

I'm not so good at making friends. Today I have to go out there and make friends from my court. It dawned on me that I'm so lonely because I have very few friends from this court. Friends are the human angels. I need those right now as I transition through celibacy. I pray for strength. I don't want to chicken out as I start to interact and I won't be discouraged when they don't warm up to me as fast as I want. I have been talking to God about the way I feel and I guess this is a sign. Ok, now that's enough talk. Time to act. It's time to take the first step