|Apr 10 2011|
I just got back from Virginia where my family lives. I hadn't seen them in about nineteen years. It turns out that my grandmother and aunt had been looking for me all those years...It feels amazingto feel so loved. There were a lot of people that like my cousins who have been sending their love my way even though they didn't know where I was or if I was well or where I was.
When I was three years old my mother met a man who ended up taking us away from my family. We were not allowed to speak to them. We were discouraged from having friends. I left that situation when I was twenty. Unfortunately, I have something inside of me that wants a whole family and wants to forgive and forget....
That led to me trying to track them down every year or two and trying to contact them again. I have learned to not do that. At this point, all I know is that they are in Jacksonville Florida or somewhere near that. I only found that out with the wonderful assistance of Google...
I forwarded the information to my grandmother. I don't really want to see my mother again. That woman has hurt me so many times. She used me and discarded me or allowed me to be discarded. Perhaps her own mother can get through to her, or perhaps her childhood friends can....At least I can hope that that is the case. Time will tell.
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