Redwood's Journey to Health

I am having a hard time with this.  I mentioned in an earlier post that work is insane right now.  I have worked no less than a 10 hour day for weeks now and sometimes working on the weekendstoo.  I just feel like there is so much work I will never keep up.  More and more is getting asked of me.

I am making mistakes.  I have made 3 or 4 in the past couple weeks that I now have to correct (like paying the wrong person for someone else's bill).  Stupid, embarassing mistakes because I am rushing so much to try to get it all done.

I feel guilty because I can't keep up with my personal email.  I feel guilty because I haven't been on MDJ.

I am realizing all of this makes me feel "less than".  Less than I should be, less than others expect of me, less than I need to be.  What will my new boss think of me?  Will he think he made a mistake in hiring me? 

I think the danger in getting your self-esteem externally (and this job has been a real boost for me) is that when you don't do well, your self-esteem crashes.  That's what is going on.