redemption

Well, i am back on the road to recovery, again. Hope this is the last time I have to do this. It is SO true that it is the staying off that is the hardest and I have just admitted to myself that I will ALWAYS be a recovering addict.

I am so disappointed in myself that I have relapsed after 7 months clean, I am confused as to how I could have gone back. I havent had any for a day so I hope this is another chance to stay clean

It is a hard struggle to stay clean when you suffer from severe depression

Its been a few months now without the heroin. I must admit I am very proud of myself, I feel it has taken so much from me that I cant at 40, do this sort of thing and my son deserves a happy life. ButI do feel so alive again, my emotions are coming back with a vengance but in a good way. I hope someone might read this and be encouraged to know that they can beat the heroin (or any drug)

Life without heroin is fantasic, you get yourself back again. Although I did relapse, I didnt let it discourage me from the fact tht I have kicked this habit that has taken 10 years from me, only 10 thoughno more.

I have decided to get 'therapy' for all the bad things that have happened to me.It has shaped who I was, a addict. 

I f...kd up 2day,I took 5 lines of heroin and I an gutted.Feel so ashamed and disappointed in myself.But it has taught me a valuable lesson and that is never to touch it again.

It has now been a couple of weeks since I have had any heroin, the stuff I was taking couldnt have been any good as I have had no withdrawals, it must be the meds I am on.

I am in a dilema, my fiance is in denial and is blaming averything on me, its hard but I cant help thinking that he is right, I have brought this on myself by not showing any emotion whatsoever,Maybe I should be smart 

Feelin on top of the world, I am 40 his year and my life is just starting, I owe it to myself and my family to stop. Its taken over ten years but I have learned to 'slay the Dragon'and livelife to the fullest without heroin.

This is the 10th day without any heroin and it is going great!

This is the 8th day without smoking heroin and I feel on top of the world!  I am also on other meds and I think I have been fortunate not to h ave had bad withdrawals. ITS GREAT!!!

Today is a good day, no evil thoughts only the ones to keep'clean', there must be a better term to use.