|Feb 20 2012|
|Feb 05 2012|
So I stayed home Thurs. and Fri. due to being sick. My hope was that by taking time off I would be better by Monday.
However, I am worse now than I was then! I can't go 30 seconds withoutblowing my nose or sneezing. AND I can only breathe out of one nostril. :(...
|Feb 02 2012|
|Jan 29 2012|
Work has been pretty good. The bad part is that they didn't bother telling me it was part time until the day I started. They told me originally it was full time, but then when I got there they informed me it was only 4 1/2 hours a day! So now I am looking for a second job so that I'm not just working for my gas. Pretty stressed about that.
The past week I've been in pre...
|Jan 22 2012|
I am super nervous about starting my new job tomorrow. I need all the prayers and positive energy sent my way as possible!
|Jan 16 2012|
Pain is ok today. 2-3. Depression is not as bad as the past couple days. Hubby is finally awake is home for the day. This helps. I really don't know what I would do without him.
For somereason, I can feel myself getting angry with him, but there's no reason for it! I do this all the time, but usually I don't notice until it's too late and I'm already yelling and throw...
|Jan 14 2012|
I just found out my other brother is having another F*ing baby. That means both of my brothers are expecting. WTF.
I can't deal with this.
Both of my brothers got their girlfriends pregnant at 13/14. Now they are having second babies and it has only been 2/3 years. One is 19 and the other is 20. They can't even afford to take care of themselves and the babies the...
|Jan 14 2012|
Today's a good day so far. Pain is only about a 2, which is the best it's been in weeks. Depression is not bad today at all. I'm a little blah but nothing too bad.
I'm getting nervous about tonight though. Hubby starts his new job working as a security guard from 6p-6a. In the past when we have been apart overnight, I couldn't sleep. That means on Friday, S...
|Jan 12 2012|
|Jan 11 2012|
|Jan 11 2012|
I refrained from making new year's resolutions this year because the same thing happens every year. I vow to lose weight, I gain weight, I hate myself. SO this year I waited until the right resolutioncame to me.
In 2012 I will make ONE new friend. It's not asking too much, just one. This may seem like no big deal, but if you knew me, you would understand how utterly difficult thi...
|Jan 10 2012|
First I want to say thank you to all of the wonderful people who have been showing support. It really does make it a little bit better. The pain is a little better today.
I took Aleve, puton Tiger Balm Red and then put on a menthol roll-on (like Bio-Freeze). It felt really good for about 30 minutes but the pain is slowly coming back.
I have been researching vitamin...
|Jan 09 2012|
|Jan 08 2012|
|Jan 07 2012|
I feel so lost. This is not my life. This is not my reflection looking back at me. It looks like me, but it doesn't FEEL like me, if that makes sense.
The plan I made for myself allthose years ago has been lost somewhere and this life I am living looks nothing like the blueprints....