Please, Tell Me

     The muscles in my back have been a little more bothersome than usual.  To help ease the pain, I think I'm going to get a massage soon.  I had one once as a birthday present from my husband.  It was fantastic!  When I think of all the things that I spend money on, paying for a massage really isn't that big of a deal every now and then. 

     I went to the gym today and did the elliptical then sat in the sauna for 20 minutes.  That's another thing I need to do more -sit in the sauna.  My muscles feel SO much better for a while after.  The 30 minutes I did on the elliptical was good too.  I burned about 300 calories and I love the endorphins.  The only problem with the endorphins is that it eventually wears off. :(  Oh well! 

     I'd really like to lose 15 to 20 pounds.  If I did I'd be at my ideal, healthy weight.  After I had my son three years ago I had 60 pounds to lose.  It takes me forever to lose weight.  Hopefully that means that it will stay off.  So I guess I need to make a small goal for myself to get me a little more motivated.  Hum, okay today is the 4^th of November.  My goal is to lose 3 to 5 pounds in two weeks, which will be Nov. 18.  On that date, I'll see how I did and reevaluate then.

               The thought that has been bothering me the most is the fibro pain.  Right now it's mainly my muscles.  Sometimes all my joints will hurt as well.  It's just that when the pain starts and I can't get it to stop, I get freaked out.  I wonder how long is it doing to last and am I going to be too fatigued to do the things I need to get done.  It's an awful feeling.

     But when the pain diminishes, like it sometimes does, I feel fantastic.  I'll be full of energy, have very little soreness throughout my body, and I tend to exercise more when I feel this way.  I hope I have more symptom free days!!!! One can hope can't she? :)