Todays thoughts

Today marks 3 months that he has been gone. I have to say I have become a much stronger person. He has not stopped "hoping" things are going to work out between us. I feel sorry for him, buthe did this to himself. I know what he wanted in a wife, and I was all of that. But he was too paranoid and too afraid of looking bad or being done wrong that he ran the relationship and our family into the ground!!! I wish he could have been a much different person, and I just accept he is who he is and its not my job to make him a better person because he simply is not. He is who he is. Its a shame. I know that I made the right choice for my kids and I no longer feel guilty about it. We all want a husband, family, mom and dad at home but sometimes that is just not the reality. A family doesn't have to be mom dad and the kids, a family just has to be a group of people who love each other and find comfort in their happiness. If he really loved us at all, he would have done everything in his power to make it work, not the opposite. I even doubt that he cared about us at all. So now that he is begging me to come back, all I can do is shake my head and say sorry just like R. Kelly says...when a woman is fed up, ain't nothing a man can do.