pihumble

Why now, things keep piling up, I want the anguish  to go away.  First, my public defender calls, talking about going to trial, which freaks me out, and I start going to the bathroom all the time. The girl I meet online back in March breaks-up again.  I have been saving up money for an airplane ticket to meet her. Looking forward to telling her I added more money to the “see her fund.”  Only to receive “Can't do this anymore, sorry.” what happened no idea, getting the silent treatment.  We had a great talk on the phone on Tuesday, now this.  Last Cathy has been home the last 3 days recovering from minor surgery, the TV has been on the Food network the whole time, annoys the heck out of me.

 

I started fasting today, what is the point of eating, with going to the bathroom all the time. I need to find something to look forward to, and I do not have anything. Every day is a disappoint, wondering why I keep hoping for a better tomorrow. I am ready to give up on tomorrow, and cash in my chips.  I know there is love out there somewhere, hope I find it in time.