pihumble

I am easily startled, the other day it was a lizard on my front porch.  My only guess is it has something to do with my lithium medication. I feel on edge because of it, just unsettled, likea new vulnerability, in my armor.  People think I am nervous because of my lithium shakes, now I am jumping at shadows.  This just sucks; I will not quit taking my meds, yet I have complete empathy with people who do. 

 

One thing I have learned over the past year and half.  I have the ability to be stubborn, and the willingness to do so for years. I have tried a new approach, if I do not like something, move on, and quit hitting my head against the wall. These mediations may become my new enemy, and a war that has no end in sight. There one thing you need to know about me, I hate to lose.  I am completive, determined, resourceful, driven to succeeded, and stubborn.  I have given up drinking, given up a marriage, a career, so I can win and bent this madness to my will and be the master.