peanut

Today was a long day.  I am tired of the running around. No one seams to get it, I am not well most of the time. My day started off with my hubby turning me on and then leaving the house before I could get back from the bus stop. I went to 3 stores in an hour. Drained the clothes and water frommy washer that broke half way through the cycle. My hubby came home long enough to get a ride to his semi-truck. He didn't even get off the phone to say goodby when I droped him off. I had to go back over in-laws to do laundry so the kids had cloathes for school. Got there and discovered that the house was already trashed again. I cleaned it again because of the grandparents now being there. Especially since grandpa went to hospital today, I wanted grandma to come back to a clean house. He has pnamonia again! Don't think he's going to make it much longer. He's 82 and has only a third of a working heart. Went home and cleaned my house wich was falling apart from being at in-laws cleaning for the past 5 days. Found out that my hubbys job hours have changed and he will see me less and won't see the kids at all except the weekends. We have been there before and it was very hard on our relationships. I hope we can figure something else out soon. We hardly see him now! Then I realized I have a meeting with my sons teachers at 11 am to discuss him going to the 6th grade with learning dissabilitys. A long morning ahead. Especially since my anxiety goes through the roof in these situations. I am soooooooooo tired and my hands are really bothering me. I just want to go to bed, but I know by the time I get to I will have insomnia and be up till 2am as usual. I slept in past alarm for 35 minutes today. oops! My daughter wasn't to happy when she had to skip breakfast to catch the bus. I feel so numb lately. Just tring to keep up with the world around me that seems to be in hyper speed. Gotta go put kids to bed now, then wait for that secound wind that I don't want to come.