Sick and can't sleep yet again... |
May 09 2012 |
Well, once again I find myself sick as a dog and unable to sleep. These past few days have been hell. My stomach is swollen and making some crazy noises and I haven't passed anything but blood in three days now. And, i've never had this symptom before but I am incredibly naucious and am having a hard time keeping anything down. :( What irks me the most is that I called my doctors office and told them I needed to see my doctor because I wasn't feeling well and they can't see me for another two weeks. I can not imagine being this miserable for another two weeks. URG. I'm really trying to stay positive about all of it but really, its hard to be so positive when i'm in so much pain. The remicade is supposed to be helping and well, obviously its not. I'm just so incredibly exhausted. As in, i'm ready for all of this to stop, all of the pain and everything. I just want to find a medicine that will kick me into remission so I can have a real life! I would love to go hiking or bike riding with my fiance this weekend but i'm afraid they don't have bathrooms smack in the middle of the woods. But, now more than ever i'm realizing how amazingly lucky I am to have seth (my fiance). He has been there for me for so much, every procedure, every appointment, every belly ache he's been there. I guess thats mostly why I know that I can spend the rest of my life with him and we'll still be in love 50 years from now. He's my best friend and I love him for that. Anyway, enough mushy stuff. I know i've been whiney, so if your reading this thanks for reading all my whining and moaning. I forwardly apologize if this puts you in a icky mood. Hope everyone has a blessed day!
Comments (1)
No icky mood for me. You sound just like my husband and I. I used to lay in bed and cry my stomach hurt to bad! (I didnt lay in bed much because the majority of my time was spent on the toilet with a trash can in my lap to throw up in). I've never seen blood but I know it's there b/c i tested positive for it every time. I to have had to avoid certain plans/outings with friends b/c of my bowel habits. Fortunately I am feeling better. My bowels still get the best of me but I am finally looking in an upward direction after 5 years! There is hope. Maybe it's just going to take time. My stomach made awful noises before I was diagnosed. It was quite embarassing b/c I would be sitting in class and my stomach would make these terrible groling noises and everyone knew it was me! We would all just smile or laugh and continue with our work. I can not belive how much you sound like me 5 years ago. I wish you the best and hope you will continue to keep us posted on your "progress" I use the word progress b/c I'm sure they'll find something that works so you can jump back into YOUR life! 
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