|May 02 2012|
My father moved to Florida to be with his wife at the beginning of April. She had decided to move down there last year with her best friend who owns property and a trailer there. Things went sour withmy fiance in October so I moved in with Dad under the pretense that he would move to Florida and I would take over his home. Fine, everything has happened. While I find my solitude to be distressing, at times, overall I would say that having my own space has been more of a blessing than a curse.
I received a call from my stepmother this morning talking about how unhappy my father seems to be there. As the conversation went on and on, I suddenly felt like a 20 yr old all over again and refereeing my birth mom and dad as they argued and eventually slipped into a divorce. I don't really care either way about their relationship, but I want my father to be happy. I've always harbored feelings that this marriage was a mistake, but now I feel horrible that those feelings have proven to be true. I see divorce in their future and it just wears me out. We are all so tied into each other's lives as a family that separating it all would be painful. There is also a great deal of guilt here b/c my marriage went to hell just before my parents divorced and now another relationship has gone to hell for me and it would seem my dads marriage is going to hell again too.
I want him to be happy, but he and I cannot live together. I need my space and my girls need their space. I can't afford a place of my own on my own (not that I particularly want to move again, but whatever) and there isnt anyone that I would want to live with right now. So, the result is me being stressed out, angry and hateful towards everyone. I'm tired of cleaning up the damn family messes and I'm tired of even caring. Once again, there isn't room for me and my problems. Ugh
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