DREAMING OF BEING SMOKE-FREE...ONCE AGAIN |
Jun 19 2012 |
Dear Diary,
I have decided to quit smoking. I shall write in you everyday and talk about how things are going.
I have tried many things to no avail. This time I amtrying a tapering method.
One cig per hour. I was up to 3 per hour so that will be a drastic cut. However, I feel confident I can do it.
I began at 10pm Tues night, June 19th 2012. I have smoked 3 cigs in 3 hours verses 9.
How do I feel? Happy.
I am watching the clock waiting on the hour to light up. But, I have found it's not been hard. Seems the strongest desire is to light up right after I finish my cig. Then to light up 15 mins before due time.
Even cutting back for just a few hours I can feel my lungs getting better. Really.
I figure after 2 weeks I will smoke 1 cig every 1.5 hours. Then after 2 weeks I will smoke 1 cig every 2 hours. Then after 2 weeks I will smoke 1 cig every 2.5 hours. Then 2 weeks later one cig every 3 hours.
It will take me a few months to finally end smoking, but if I stay on track I will be smoke-free again.
The best thing I liked about not smoking was I could laugh without coughing and all dairy products taste were amazing.
I remember how my gums became so tender and sore after not smoking for 3 days that it hurt to brush my teeth. How my body poured sweat at night for 30 days.
The doc said gums hurting was from feeling coming back in them. Cig smoking had pretty much numbed them to a high extent. How when a smoker feels a sore throat it is generally severe because the throat is somewhat numbed like the gums.
The doc said I sweated because the posions were coming thru my pores.
It only takes 3 days for physical addiction to leave body but a very long time for physcological addiction to subside.
Cigarette smoking has been proven it is a stronger addiction than herion. And extremely difficult to stop and remain smoke-free.
But, with the help of God, I will make it.
Talk to you tomorrow dear diary
Till then...deep breaths in, slow breaths out....
BEHOLD THE MOMENTS OF BEAUTY...THEY ARE THERE
Vick's, White Beans, Family....Always
Jesus more than a Feeling
The End Of One Journey...
My mom passed away at the age of 59 with lung cancer. My dad dies 3 years earlier at the age of 62 with lung cancer.
As you know, it is extremly frightening to have a possible genetic link to these lung diseases and still smoke.
But, the addiction is so strong it actually overides the deep fears.
Now, that, my friend, is true addiction.
Still smoking. Still praying.
Thanks for your encouragment...I need all I can get.
Love and hugs
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Rand Jr Feels so good about it too, he will be drug, smoke free totally and he is making sure I stick to it. Got him worried a few months ago, when I woke up and couldn't breath,,until he found my inhaler. He said Thats It Mom , we have to do this so you can live long enough to see what I make of myself, now that I'm all grown up. LOL I told him I was proud of him..and I am and so blessed he is doing great now and working.
Well You can do this Bits!!! I know you can..we both want to breath and when my Mom passed at 59 from COPD I should of quit that day.
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Miss Talking to you...Hugs with Love, Patty