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Nick's Diary & Dream Log

I don't really write in this diary i have here much but I'm gonna start doing it more to let you all kinda know what's going on with me and i don't hold to much back that i feel is relevant so it may be kinda uncomfortable to some.

a couple thoughts

Mar 23 2011

firstly i am so sick of this retarded problem of mine where i am always opening my eyes when i am trying to sleep because i have this paranoia of being blind, randomly waking up blind is like my worstfear ever just about and i will always just open my eyes to make sure i can still see lol. This started like 4 months ago and isnt going away, and like it causes me tremendous stress and discomfort yet i cant stop doing it. grrrrr

and second,...earlier i stepped on a thorn and it was painful beyond words and this random thought came into my head like what if God was real and he decided to force me to like step on thorns all day long non stop without break for a billion years. He's god so i assume he can do w/e he wants or atleast whatever i can imagine within my own mind, so why wouldnt he be able to torture me non stop in the worst possible way for all eternity if he wanted to? that really creeps me out. Not that i believe in god, but if i think about that then it kinda disturbs me because even tho i dont believe in god i do admit there is a chance he is real because i dont know everything,...so the fact that what i just said could potentially be possible is creepy as fuk

k thats it,...just wanted say that stuff lol

Previous diary posts by ILoveTheRain:

Another Horrible Day
Angry and Annoyed
The Shark Dreams
Another wasted meaningless day
My Lack of Charisma

Good day so far/Bad dream
Feeling Weird
Kinda Disapointed/Depressed
Im In Hell
There is no God

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written by KittenMittens, March 23, 2011

Those are interesting thoughts, I've had them too. There are so many 'what ifs' that we can come up with, huh? LOL

written by serenityandpain, March 23, 2011

let me tell you something really funny. i used to sleep at my best friends house all the time and she always slept with a humidifier. she had a small room and one morning i woke up and everything looked really cloudy so i rubbed my eyes. still cloudy. i knew it was just that morning gook so i rubbed again. i could see the light of the window but everything was so hazy. finally i yelled, wake up! wake up! im blind! and she burst out laughing and put my hand on her blanket. it was damp bec the humidifier was blasting on high. i always smile when i think about that. talk about relief.