New Year!

I so give up on everything.  I stopped doing that love dare.  I feel so low and worthless.  My life feels like it has no meaning at all. 

Today's Dare ~ to demostrate patience and to say nothing negative to my hubby at all.

 this is a concise version of the dare but to the point.  Last night was a awesome connectionnight.  We cuddled, did a crossword together and played with our dog.   I bought the Love Dare Book last night and started this morning even though I wont see him until late tonight.

I have had it with husband.  His inability to share his emotions, love and thoughts are driving me crazy.  I am seriously thinking about doing a trial separation after the holidays.    I feel like I am not even around and treated like a pal instead of a wife.  Sex does not exist and always pushed until another date.  I feel so unloved and unwanted in the house.&n

Well almost a month until I get lasik. I am really excited about this!  I cannot wait to be done with glasses/contacts! 

Ok it is almost a week since Kris went over Rainbow Bridge.  My heart still aches for her but I did see something in my younger dog, Piper Jo, that Kris used to do.  It was a look that PJ gaveme that reminded me of Kris.  I looked at her for the longest time and hugged her (and she kissed me).    I have decided come Spring (yes come Spring!), I am going to build a flo

Krissy went over Rainbow Bridge on Saturday (2/9/2008) and her loss is killing me.  I know I did what is right but it doesnt stop the pain.  I am joining folks from petloss.com in a candlelightvigil at 10pm (EST) on Monday nights. 

 This pain is so intense and real.  I feel like I am disconnected from reality.  People are buzzing around me but I am so despon

Ah Thursday!  Things are looking up each day.  I still have anxieties but I am slowly putting them into their categories.  I just have to remember to breathe!

I have had bronchitis for about 2 weeks and I am getting better each day.  Now I need to get out of this house!  I have cabin fever!!  It is taking affect on my mood making me disconnectedto my little family.  I am preoccupied in going outside.  I am hoping to get over this and visit my folks today.

Well another year has gone by and I have learned a lot on how to control the arthritis I get from DLE.  If I do a good dose of exercise without overdoing it, I am pain free!  What a great thingto say!  Lately though I have been feeling under the weather and trying to workout while sick is a lose/lose situation.  But I have seen my doctor and he prescribed some antibiotics and n