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Jun 04
2008

NOT SO BAD

I went to the psychologist today and it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be! She was very nice and she knows Fibro is a real painful Syndrome! I feel so lucky to have her!

She said that I don't really seem depressed and that mostly we will work on my anxiety issues! I'm so excited! I just feel like everything is finally falling into place for me! I have not felt so normal in so long!

I love life so much right now! I hope that I can continue to feel this great! I'm not even having the constipation that the doctors said could happen! I'm actually regular for the first time in years!

I couldn't be happier!



May 19
2008

Still Doing Good!

Went to the rhuematologist today and he diagnosed me as having severe Fibromyalgia.

I told him how the Norco's were helping me and he said that the pain meds and the antidepressants are great for Fibromyalgia pain. Then I told him that once I have my surgery they are going to take them from me and he said that doctors are afraid of prescribing pain meds.

I don't get it. If the pain meds are working so well then why not just leave me on them.

He did give me a pmphlet on a Fibro study his friend is doing on exercise. What these people don't understand is that without the pain meds I am bed ridden and plus I have a difficult time doing exercises because of my mineares disease.

I just wish they could leave me on these meds I am on now.

This weekend was allot of fun! I taught my kids how to ride bikes! No more training wheels! We went fishing and saw snakes and turtles! I kept my cusions kids this weekend as well!

We just had a super weekend!
We didn't get to do anything last summer because I was so sick.

This pain medicine also calmed down my IBS so I don't feel like I have a stomach virus everyday!

I wish I could be like this forever!

May 17
2008

I'M LIVIING!!!!!

I took my kids to a reading festival today and we all had so much fun! I don't know who enjoyed it more, me or the kids lol.

It was great they hadClifford the big red dog, star wars characters, and captain Jack Sparrow from Pirates Of The Caribean!

These people were getting their picture taken with the star wars characters and my daughter jumped up there smiling lol. I had to explain that people that don't know you really don't want you in their pictures lol.

It was really a wonderful day. I can't beleive everything I have been able to do!

I'm so happy I could cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!

May 16
2008

NOW/LATER

I can't beleive doctors wont prescribe pain meds for fibro because I feel wonderful!!!!!

I can't imagine having to go back to what I left and I knowthey will take my pain meds away after I have surgery and once again I will be right back at square one.

I want to enjoy feeling pain free while I can but then I keep think of that NP taking my pain meds after surgery and it's really stressing me out.

These pain meds make me able to function. I have been stuck inside my home for 17 months and unable to do anything and today I went to the store with my mom and actually enjoyed it!

I don't know if these help other people as much as they have helped me, but WOW!

I finally can live again! I don't ever want to go back to that horrible hell I just left!

I know that I will be sent back though the NP already sentenced me.

May 15
2008

Good Report

I'm so happy! I feel so good today! I never feel like this!

My upper back is having some pain, but nothing that I can't tolerate and I'm readyto start living again! I'm going to be doing s deep cleaning on my house starting tomarrow! I know I still can over do it and make myself go into a bad flare so I will take it easy, but I just can't beleive how much of a difference having pain meds makes!

My arthritis pain, HA what arthritis pain lol! It's just my upper back thats being a pain in the butt. Still I feel so much better!
I never thought I would feel this good again! I just can't beleive it!

I still wake up in pain but then I took my meds and about 40 minutes later releife!

I'm going to hate it when they take my pain meds.

They said that as soon as I have my knee surgery they will take them away.

Don't they know that I will always have the arthritis and that the surgery is only going to recenter the knee caps, and cut out some of the damaged bone. Then after that heals I have to do the other knee.

My mom said that I need to get a paper from the surgion stating that I will still need my pain meds because of the arthritis, which is why I was getting them in the first place.

I think I will kill myself  if I have to go back to hell.

My mom said if they take them get a new doctor that will give them to me.

I don't want to be bed ridden again like I have been for the past 17 months.

Now I know why the internal specialist put me on Norco 10's for my IBS a long time ago. The pain meds have calmed my IBS I no longer feel nauseated!

May 14
2008

2 more health problems YAY!

So the pain clinic did some blood work on me , and it turns out that my sugar levels were very high, and I hadn't even eaten yet when they did the test that day. Also my Thyroid waslow what ever that means.

So I guess I'll be off for more testing and I so hope I don't have diabetis. I had gestational diabetis and it was awful!

May 13
2008

Worried

I'm so worried about tomarrow. I hope they don't get mad at me for not wanting Methadone. I just don't want anything to do with that medicine!

I don't think I would do well with Methadone anyway because I have been very nauseated lately from my IBS. I have read that Methadone is the easiest on the digestive system, but that it can cause nausea and vomiting and God knows I have enough nausea and fight constantly to not be vomitting.

If my IBS gets to bad I start getting sick and can't stop and then my body starts shutting down. My old specialist prescribed me Norco 10's for my IBS because for what ever reason the only thing that calms it down is pain meds.I never got to take them though because my mom brought them home and left them on the counter and her X husband took them.That was years ago though so I'm not upset.

I hopeI can remember to take those stupid Fentynal patches back with me! I would hate to drive all that way and then have to leave with nothing for this pain because I forgot those stupid patches!

My left wrist hurts so bad that I can't even turn a door knob with it. I'm feeling so nauseated that I can't stand to eat, but I make myself eat a little because if not then the real fun will begine.

May 13
2008

Angry

I know this is childish, but I wish I could be magic for just one day!

I would go directly to this Monkey Girl and her friends, and give them one of the worst flares I have ever expereinced and then I would make them go to work!!!! They wouldn't be able to get out of bed, but I would force them!

I would make their head hurt so bad that they feel like their eyes will pop out of their head! They would be so dizzy that they they want to vomit!Their neck would hurt so bad and be so stiff they wouldn't be able to turn their neck far enough to see when they switch lanes while driving! They will have a knot in their head that hurts so bad it also adds to the nausea!Every single joint in ther body would feel like someone was pushing a small metal rod between the joints! Their bones would hurt so bad they would think they were dieing! Their blood pressure will be stroke level because they are in so much pain with no way out! I will then send them to the doctor so they can be treated like drug seekers when they are crying for releife! I will also make sure the doctor tells them it's all your head!

Yes thats how most of my flares are and I would love to share that with those freakin idiots that think we are drug seekers. Who in that condition wouldn'tbe seeking drugs! They think we have regular body aches! Ha, I would prefer to give birth everyday rather than go through some of my worste flares!And this is coming from someone who had an 11 lb. 2.3 ounce baby!

May 12
2008

What a stupid B****!

So that bitch Monkey Girl is at it again!

She has a real hate for people with Fibromyalgia. I guess she doesn't keep up with research or she would knowwe are very close to actually having ways to prove once and for Fibromyalgia does exist. I can't wait to see how she tries to cover up her ignorance once it is finally prooven!

So I will post her Fibromyalgia Awarness day blog here and please feel free to comment at it.

It's Fibromyalgia Awareness Day!

In case you didn't see last years post check it out. There is a plethora of helpful links to assist you in managing your fake disease.

After working my ass off for the last 3 nights, I'm going to take my exhausted and sore feet, neck, back, arms, and legs outside into the sunshine to work in the yard for a few hours. Then I'm going to come inside and take some *gasp* Motrin and relax for the evening. I'll prolly een drink a beer or two. It's not the same as going to the ER for narcotics, but it'll have to do.

What are YOU doing to celebrate Fibromyalgia awareness day?

AND HERE ARE THE 7 COMMENTS SHE HAS SO FAR

jlo in md said...

I think I'll take a nap and have my 5 year old cook dinner for the 4 and 1 year olds after she rubs my feet for me. Then I might run into the ER around midnight with all three of them and look for someone to pity me and give me something for this horrible pain that just won't seem to go away.No, not the children, the other one. The imaginary one in my head.And back. And hands. And entire body....Aren't you working tonight? I could use another foot rub.

Erica said.....

I've noticed the interesting comorbidity of Fibromyalgia with acute text-wallitis. I wonder if I could get federal funding to conduct an important and life-saving study on this phenomenon.

babs said...

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jaws said.....

I plan on taking it easy at home this time around since last year on Fibromyalgia awareness day I got super crazy and walked around block very slowly.

But m excitement was short-lived as my IDS (Imminent Death Syndrome) flared up like a pack of hemmorhoids. I was rushed to the ER, where the doctor told me to be very careful bc my IDS was just as potent as ever and that I could die in 5 seconds or that it could be another 50 years, but he ws damn sure IDS was going to get me.

Fibromyalgia awareness day hasn't been the same for me since.

Nap time.

monkeys favorite (next to tina) said....

I think I will take my scrubs off, since they are covered in welfare cooties...examine my paycheck to see how little money I have left after I have paid for the millions on medicaid, empty my pockets to insure I have no leftover Dilaudid hanging around that I gave all day to Fibromyalgia and Migraine patients, and if I do, put my clothes back on, head back into work (gas being 4 dollars a gallon) and take it back for fear I will loose my job and cause a chain reaction of thousands of parents not being able then to afford the motrin to give their children, which will cause seizures, then enormous ER bills, which leads to me having less money cause millions on state insurance depend on me...then I will come back home, feed my children Taco Bell, Tell them I cannot afford the Nike's due to the above mentioned problems, and have a drink, raise a toast, solute and say happy frikkin' Fibromyalgia day!!! Now, kids, put on your Wal-Mart light up shoes and go to bed, mommy has to get some sleep, and I think I now have a  migraine...Where's my dark glasses?

joeymom said...

I think I'll have a beer and a couple oreos. Works for PMS cramps bet it does great for stress body aches.

aaron said....

I'm going to have a pin the tale on the trigger point party.

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Well don't we all feel better now knowing what kind of scum works in Americas ERs.

They are alchoholics in it only for the money. They also pass judgment on those of us who can't work and have Medicaid. Oh and lets not forget to notice their spoiled little brat children sleep in their Wal-Mart shoes. I'm sure that it's not normal for children to put their shoes on for bed time.

Also notice the only reason one of them takes the Dilaudid back is because she could loose her job, that seems to make her miserable and I can't for the life of me begine to understand why she chose a career that she hates so much. I mean didn't she know that being in the medical field she would be dealing with people from all walks of life.

My fibromayalgia awareness day wish is that they all get Fibromyalgia so that they can stop comparing it to regular body aches.Also I hope they all have to anser to God for their heartless way of thinking.

 

May 11
2008

Dear God, I feel so alone

I was talking to my best friend yesterday and she made me mad. She didn't mean to, but never the less she did. I don't love her any less for it.

We were talking about Fibro , arthritis , and exercise. She said to me you need to exercise in order to feel better. I thought ok so I want you with your back pain to go and exercise when your pain is at an all time high!

I don't like to walk because I fall all the time and the pain becomes more intense. I can't do certain exercises because of  meneires disease which causes me to feel like I'm on one of those spinning rides at the fair and can't get off!I feel nauseated 24/7 these days and I have absolutely no energy.

If I did exercise I would end up in so much pain that I would be trying to decide which is better life or death.

I told my friend, Look before all of this happend to me I was working 56 hours a week, and was 100 times more active than you are! She couldn't argue with me there!

I was always doing something before I got sick. If I wasn't at work I was with my kids at the park or walking the peoples trail down the street from my apartment. If I wasn't doing that I was doing something that involved physical activity. I used to go out dancing every Saturday night with my boyfriend. I'm a good dancer and it always brought me so much pleasure to show that off lol.

Now I have gained 90lbs and can't stand to lift my arms long enough to pluck my eye brows!

Am I depressed HELL YEAH. How could I not be. Look at what I was and have now become!

I'm scared about what the future holds. I'm scared of how all of this is effecting my children. I know that this will eventually make my boyfriend want to leave me.I'm scared I will never feel good enough to work again. I'm scared if I do get good enough to work again I will loose my medicaid and then be right back where I started (if I make some progress).

I want my life back! I'm to poor for this illness!

I'm tired of doctors not listening to me. I'm tired of worrying about finding pain releife. I'm tired of every thought I have being I want out of this pain!

May 11
2008

thoughts

I keep thinking about everything I have been through and how long it took me to get a doctor to finally listen to me.

When I first went to the doctor I see now I told her that I felt like I was falling apart. My doctor told me that she would make me better and lets start with one thing at a time. I told a few problems I was having and she sent me off for X-Rays and to an Orthopedic doctor.I felt like I she was going to help me get better and then she let me down.

I need to talk to her about some more problems I'm having but I'm afraid to because of the way I have been treated in the past and she is finally acting like she is concerned again.

I'm angry about the way the pain clinic is failing me and if they put me on Methadone I know that they don't like using regular opiods and I will have to tell my doctor that I'm not happy with the treatment I'm receiving there and to refer me to a different place. I would have to drive even further than what I drive now just to see a pain doctor and then I don't know that they will be any better.

I want to get a new doctor but I don't know if I have it in me to start over.

May 09
2008

Muscle Spasms

My back muscles are going crazy.I wish they would just stop!

My right kidney is hurting terribly, but I'm sure if I go to my doctor she will put it offto back pain, but it's not!

My right arm needs looked at too because it hurts terribly.

I hate Fibromyalgia, and I hate arthritis!

I'm tired of being tired, and I'm tired of feeling nauseated.

I thought today was going to be a good day, but now I'm sick again.

May 09
2008

A little better today

I stopped taking the Prednisone because my stomach can't tolerate it. I feel much better today! I still hurt but at least I don't feel like dragging myself on the floor through the house.

I did have my left leg stiffen up on me so bad that I had to lean on the walls to walk this morning and had to use one of those buggies at Walmart. I just couldn't walk without falling.

I was lauhing so hard because I almost wrecked into the water fountain. I'm not very good at driving those things! Hopefully my leg doesn't get stiff like that again for a long time!

I'm very, very tired today. Last night I went to bed around 10pm wook up at 12am, went back to sleep at 1am, wook back up at 2am, went back to sleep at 5am and had to get up at 6:30am. I try so hard to sleep, but it never works.

My left arm has a knot on the side that rests against my body and it hurts so bad today that I can't let my arm touch my body.

I hope the pain clinic gets me on something for all of this pain.

My mom is wanting us to get a place together because I'm sick so much and I have a hard time taking care of my home and keeping up with my kids.

I have been thinking about disability, but every time I think I should theres that part of me that wants to go back to work so bad and I keep telling myself that I will getbetter and I will go back to work. I told my mom lets just wait a while for the disability thing because I want to see how I do once I'm on the right meds if I ever get the right meds.

Well thats it.

May 08
2008

I am a dreamer

I don't know if any of you have ever sat and wrote down every symptom you have, but I did today and when I looked at it I thought if I was to hand this to any doctor he would think hypochondriac for sure. I can't help that I experience these things, but even when I look at it, it just seems so unbelievable!

Some of the symptoms I only have every once in a while, but some I have on and off throughout everyday and some are constant.

I'm really scared now that I have written it all out like that. I look at it and think I'm dieing for sure. As much as I say I want to die thats not what I want. I just want to be pain free and normal.

I told my mom that it would be great if the rhuemy I go to on the 19th would diagnose me with something other than Fibro and get me on the right meds and all my symtoms clear up! I know I'm dreaming, but I'm allowed!

I wish, hope and pray that some doctor somewhwere finds a cure! I would run down my street screaming and shouting in pure joy lol! Then my knees would buckle and I would fall, but it wouldbn't even matter because I would be so happy!

 

May 08
2008

How I'm doing

This is how I have felt for the pats three days non stop.

My head hurts on and off, my upper back right on the spine has been getting sharp pains, plus allthe muscles around it are all tensed up again and of course that hurts. I have been getting the sharp pains again shooting from that knot on the right side of my head. I feel nauseated, and dizzy. My legs have been having sharp pains shoot down them and my feet and ankles hurt. My ribs have been hurting and I have been extra sensitive to touch.I don't want anyone touching me.

I'm completely useless. I'm way to sick to do anything. My mom said that I should have never had kids and that hurt. She just said that though because I have never been the picture of health but I never thought my life would be like this.

I get to go to the rhuemy on the 19th and maybe he can tell me if I have something more. I feel like I want to get sick and today is the first day I could stand to eat. Not that I couldn't hurt to loose some weight but still a person needs to eat.To think I put on that paper at the pain clinic that my appetite is not effected by the pain.

HA! Somthing funny, my mom called me today and asked whats going on and I said NO. LOL!

May 07
2008

A doctor who understands Fibro! They do exist!

Criteria For A Good Fibromyalgia Doctor

It is frequently difficult for persons with fibromyalgia to find a physician who is both experienced in FM diagnosis and treatmentand willing to take the time to listen. In addition, it is often challenging for the physician to determine whether a new symptom experienced by a patient is some new manifestation of fibromyalgia or a warning of some other, potentially dangerous malady. Dr. Romano offers interesting insights:

It's important to go to somebody who knows what he's doing. Very important! Doctors are punished for practicing medicine, so good luck! If you find somebody, stick with him, work with him. If you have a disagreement, work it out. If a doctor is willing to see you, willing to work with you, is open-minded and reads the stuff from the internet that you bring in, if he is willing to be your partner in therapy, send him a present at Christmas, give him a kiss, hug him--he needs it!

 

It's hard to take care of you, by the way. Very hard. The practitioner has to overcome a lot of problems. One perpetuating factor is the environment in which all this treatment takes place. Furthermore, fibromyalgia can mimic other causes of pain. Just because you have FM, you can't blame everything on it.

 

For example, here is an absolutely true story. I went to see a patient of mine who was admitted to the hospital to have an emergency appendectomy. She had been having pain for a week or so before the operation. Her appendix burst; she became hypotensive; she almost died. So I asked her why it took her so long to get to the hospital. She said: Because it hurt like everything else hurt. Interesting!

 

You could have other stuff, so don't blame everything on FM. Please be aware that your chest pain may be fibromyalgia; it may not be. You have to get this stuff checked out!

 

I don't know if you realize this, but doctors are taught how to make mistakes. Of course, they don't want to make mistakes, but if they're going to make them, there's a way to do it. There are two kinds of mistakes that can be made: a Type 1 or Alpha error or a Type 2 or Beta error (these are statistical terms).

 

A Type 1-Alpha error means you assume something is present, but it's not. An example: chest pain. You go to the emergency room. They strap you down, put a heart monitor on you, put an IV in you, give you nitro under the tongue, and they assume it's a heart attack. It's important that they assume it's a heart attack because if it's a heart attack, you could die. So they monitor you, admit you to the hospital, and two days later, the doctor comes in and says: Luckily it wasn't your heart, it's something else. It could be indigestion; it could be musculoskeletal, whatever. But that stuff isn't going to kill you. So it's important that doctors make Alpha errors. We check and make sure you don't have the worst thing, and then we can always take our time figuring out what's really going on.

 

The Beta errors, which we don't want to make, assume something is not there, but it is. An example of a Beta error...Do you know an actress by the name of Heather O'Rourke? Did you ever see Poltergeist? She was the little blonde girl who says, 'They're here!' Well, she's dead. She died because of a Beta error. Her mother took her to the ER, and the doctor diagnosed her as having the flu or something. Well, she ended up having a perforated viscus. I don't know whether it was appendix or some other part of the intestine, but it perforated, and she died.

 

When I learned medicine, we were told that if you have abdominal pain, you should be admitted for observation unless you know the reason for it. If it's a kidney stone, or if it's stuff that you've had before, and you pretty much know the pattern, that's fine. But if you have really bad abdominal pain, you should be observed. If not there can be Beta errors, and Beta errors can be fatal!

 

Fibromyalgia Is Not A "Real" Illness

One of the more frustrating situations that FM patients encounter is physicians who refuse to treat fibromyalgia because they believe it is a poorly defined or non-existent medical condition. Dr. Romano had this to say about an encounter he had with such a physician:

I was giving a talk on fibromyalgia, and a neurologist in the front row started giving me a hard time saying: The complaints (of patients) are all subjective; we don't have any tests for it.

 

So I said, you're a neurologist, right? (Yes.) How many migraine patients do you see in a week? (We see a lot of them, 30-40 in a week.) I said, okay, what's the test for migraines? There is no test for migraines. I then said to him: Apply the criteria that you applied to me to your practice. If you applied those criteria, you'd have to go out of business. You'd have to close your doors and say: We don't have a test for migraine; I can't believe you have a migraine. There's no test for it. So go home.

 

That's not right! It's okay for them to treat migraines...Neurologists know migraine headaches with a characteristic pattern: an aura, photophobia, having to be in a dark room, etc., and they treat them with medications. BUT, they will not give the fibromyalgia patient the same courtesy. That's wrong!

 

Why Doesn't My Doctor Listen To Me?

Perhaps the most common complaint voiced by people with fibromyalgia is that they get the fast shuffle in doctors' offices. Physicians hurry through a consultation, are unwilling to read the articles or notes that a patient has prepared, and are impatient to be finished with an appointment. Dr. Romano points out that many physicians, particularly those affiliated with managed care, work under very frustrating conditions:

When you were a little kid, if you brought your report card home to your mom and there were a lot of 'A's' on it, and you got punished, how many times would you bring home 'A's'? ...It seems that the doctors who are the most compassionate and spend the most time are the most punished by managed care.

I gave a talk a long, long time ago at the American College of Rheumatology's Annual Meeting, as a poster presentation. The word 'fibromyalgia' was in the title. One of the rheumatologists from Georgia (I forget what part of Georgia) came over and pointed to the word 'fibromyalgia' and said: I hate those patients!

 

This was seven or eight years ago. I asked him how he could hate his patients. That's crazy! He responded:

"They've got all those problems. Everything's bothering them. They have headaches and musculoskeletal pain. They're tired and fatigued. I hate them! They take so much time!"

So I said to him, if you could spend as much time as you wanted with them in gathering their symptoms and getting their complaints and examining them, and they could spend as much time as they wanted and feel satisfied from the encounter, and you got paid fairly for your time, would you hate those patients? (No) I said, well, you don't hate the patients; you have a problem with the conditions under which you are seeing them.

 

This is an important point. I think that part of the problem that we have here in America is that reimbursement is an issue, and doctors will not see you if it means going bankrupt...So if you bring internet stuff, books, and book chapters to your doctor, and he takes the time to read them and ends up losing money, he may not do it. It's impractical to ask someone to be punished by doing certain things. We are very simple organisms in the sense that we avoid pain, and we tend to want to go towards pleasure. If it's painful, eventually we'll stop doing it.

 

I hate to be mundane and pedestrian about this, but I have a private practice. I own a business. I have to be able to pay my staff. I have to be able to earn a living. I believe I charge fairly for my time, and because I don't deal with managed care, nobody punishes me. I take care of patients the way I want to. I find that incredibly liberating.

 

On the other hand, if you go to a health care provider who is under contract with managed care organizations or whatever, believe me, he will not be paid adequately to evaluate you and do a good exam. A previous speaker talked about using a pressure algometer which is a dolorimeter to test for tender points. No one is going to do this. It takes too much time, and it's not reimbursable. You cannot run an office that way. You'll be driven crazy.

 

Managed care is your enemy, in my opinion--one man's opinion, and I am entitled to it. If your doctor is told he can see you for 15 minutes once every three or four months, and that's it, and he has to fight to get paid to see you, how desirable are you as a patient? Seriously, he'd much rather see someone with a swollen knee. He takes the fluid out and gives you a shot. (Hey, doc, I feel better! See you in six months!) Believe me, from a physician's point of view--much easier!

 

...There has to be a reward whether it be the personal satisfaction of seeing someone get better, whether it be financial, whatever. There's got to be some reward for doing a certain action. In our society now, the most compassionate doctors are leaving medicine. I'm seeing it in my community. They can't take it any more. They're overwhelmed with paperwork!

 

    My Doctor Simply Isn't Interested In Fibromyalgia And Could Care Less About Learning More About It

When all of the possible mitigating factors have been ruled out, there are still physicians who just don't believe that fibromyalgia exists. Showing him/her all of the research articles in the world would make no difference. Dr. Romano comments on this phenomenon:

Why don't some doctors diagnose this or appreciate this? Well, maybe they don't keep up or are skeptical. If you're a busy family practitioner in a small town as the only doctor, you'll go crazy trying to figure this out in addition to everything else.

 

Unfortunately, some people are close-minded. They are. There are close-minded lawyers, close-minded doctors, close-minded butchers, and close-minded bus drivers. It's not unique to doctors, and it's not unique to patients. Some people are just close-minded.

Remember Max Planck? Max was cool. For those of you who don't know who Max was, he's the physicist who basically invented quantum mechanics. When he first came out with his idea of quantum physics, people said, 'Ah, you're full of it; this is ridiculous. We don't believe you.' He was absolutely right, of course. What he said was that an important scientific innovation rarely makes its way by gradually winning over and converting its opponents. What does happen is that its opponents gradually die out, and the growing generation is familiar with the idea from the beginning. That's usually what happens.

 

There are some doctors who still don't believe that fibromyalgia exists. Okay, fine. What can you say? There's been literature about this for 20 years now. There was before, but during the last 20 years there has been an explosion of literature regarding this condition. What are you going to do?

 

What Is The Definition Of A Good Doctor?

When everything is said and done, what should a fibromyalgia patient look for in a doctor? We close with this advice from Dr. Romano:

A good doctor should have a falcon's eye, a girl's hand, and a lion's heart. You have to find a doctor who is going to fight for you. I'm not kidding. In today's health care climate, they have to fight for you. He has to be your advocate (not in court, that's your lawyer's job) but in terms of presenting to you the best medical treatment that he can think of for your treatment.

May 07
2008

My boyfriend and I parted ways today

I guess it was finally to much for him to deal with.

I'm very sad.

May 06
2008

I'm so PO'd

If anyone has anything to say to me just say it. WTF, We are not children here so go on get it the fuck out!

I'm about to leave this group and thats sad because this group is the only thing that has helped me. I sure as hell havn't gotten any help from a doctor!

Oh dare I fucking complain on a support group! I know that one of the posts about doctor complaints was directed towards me and frankly I'm to much of a cranky bitch to bend over and take it up the ass!

Not everyone has a fucking income or good insurance.

When your on Medicaid your at the mercy of the quack doctor you get stuck with! You can't complain!

So if you don't like my complaining then dont fucking read it!

If you havn't walked in my life then don't pretend to know what my fucking options might be!

Ok if anyone has any questions just ask, chances are this is not aimed at you.

May 06
2008

Online Poll asking Fibromyalgia real or Fake

I did a poll of sorts on Yahoo answers asking people if they thought Fibromyalgia was real or fake and I didn't tell them I have Fibro. Here are the results.

1.real

2.I havehad it for 16 years, diagnosed by a rheumatologist.
I aalso have the Chronic Fatigue Syndrome that often goes along with it. There is a LOT of information on line about it. No need for me to go into detail, when you can read it there.

I will only tell you it is extremely painful, 24/7; it feels like your muscles are tearing away from all your bones

3.I was wondering recently if I had that. Quite often I have symptoms that seem to resemble it - which is not good. I really don't want to go to the doctor though. Hopefully it's a less severe case.

I think if fibromyalgia has been defined as a disease, and they have medicine for it, then it is most likely "real". We can't really judge what other people are going thru - just because we don't feel pain doesn't mean other people don't feel pain. It would be very insensitive to imply otherwise

4.Fibromyalgia has not been prooven to exists medically, however, I believe that this condition may result from an initial chronic pain, usually lower back pain, and follow with symptoms of depression and reduced serotonin levels, causing either further depression. I believe that the initial chronic pain trigger causes the perception of increased pain, phantom pain, or over exaggerated pain throughout the body. There is no doubt that this condition is REAL, but I think there is also a Strong mental component to this is well. Interestingly, there has never been a study performed, that I'm aware of, to see if a placebo (sugar pill) would help those who suffer from chronic pain. The placebo effect is very real and very strong. Just as a sugar pill can make a headache go away, a person can convince themselves that they are hurting all the time, especially if they had a chronic injury beforehand and fall deeper into depression thinking "when will I ever feel better."

5.Very real, Real pain. hurts to lay down, to walk, to sit. My sister has it. she is only 33 years old, Many times she has to have a bucket at the side of her bed. Before she was dx'ed, many doctors thought she was "Med seeking"

To the young lady who thinks she may have it, you cannot be dx'ed unless you have you pain documented over a period of time. The longer you put if off, the longer you have to be dx'ed. Express your feelings to your doctor, and make them pay attention.

6.I think it is real but I believe your mental health can play a role in it. Lack of sleep, and depression are known to make it much worse. I think some people hide behind an illness for attention or an excuse but, we are not the judge. I am sure it is real but I think with healthy eating, vitimans, and a good sleeping pattern, it could be greatly improved. Also, I belive modivation plays a factor. Just being honest.

7.Absolutely real

8.It is very real-I have lived with it at least since I was 5-
I loved sports, but could never keep up

A study was just reported in the current FMAWARE magazine that found a small loss of brain matter in FMS-that helps prove it is real

9.Very real.

I don't know how anyone can possibly doubt it. Being in so much pain and being so fatigued isn't something anyone could pretend or make up.

10.Yes, I think it is real. Many people do not doubt that the people who are diagnosed with fibromyalgia hurt. The thing alot of people think is it's just a doctor's way of saying "I can't find anything else wrong with you." Since there is no proven answer to this question there is no definite answer. But, I do think that it's real. It hurts to get out of bed, it hurts to walk long distances, it hurts when people play too rough. It hurts all the time. Yes, my opinion is bias because I have it. My doctor has explained to his opinion on it and I think he is right. He told me it's almost as if the nerves in your body do not process pain correctly. I think that's a good explanation. Yes, things like exercise and good diets help out alot. But I don't think that has caused the disease.

11.Its an artifact brought upon by well meant doctors.,
The bad combination of chronic depression, plus chronic articular pain, is the ideal artifact. (unfortunate group of signs and symptoms), however, NOT a disease per se.
The pain, and discomfort in the muscular attachments (not the muscles themselves), are typical, and nobody doubts the intensity nor the amounts on points that are the source of such pain...
Its far more common in females, and especially those with a family history of arthritis and depression.
An example on a non existing disease as such (a doctor)

12.it's real

13.real my aunt has it

14.Very real !

15.Real

16.Real, I know someone who has it.

17.Very real. There are certain markers which determine it's presence.

18.Real, I have it, and it's painfull, you hurt all the time.

19.real
bizarre, but real

20.How do you prove depression-at one time there was no proof on MS-are those fake-no-

FMS Is not fake-

there are observable signs and symptoms-and theories of concrete tests are being explored.

An article was written in the FMAWARE magazine that said it has been shown that there is a small loss of brain matter in FMS-

if that is not real, I don't know what is

21.Not trying to be mean, and I've enjoyed answering your questions. But screw all of you people who think it's fake! We, meaning sufferers of Fibromyalgia, hurt everyday. No medical proof? There is a big difference between proof and just not knowing why it happens. THAT is the problem. The problem is doctors do not understand why it happens. Fibromyalgia is very real. Why else would we hurt constantly? How about you waking up everyday with a headache, or a backache, or your knees hurting, and THEN try and tell me it isn't real!!!

22.fake
no medical proof of disease

23.Fake because I dont see any proof to back it up.

24.Mommy says it is real, but I'm not sure. I think it's in peoples' heads most of the time, like it starts with an attention thing and then it just like keeps going. But I don't know that much about it and my mom went to nursing school so she would know these things!

May 05
2008

To doctors who don't treat Fibromyalgia pain with pain medication

Dear doctor,

 When a fibromyalgia patient comes to you and they are in tears because they live day in and day out in terrible pain it is not right ofyou to assume they are depressed and send them on their way with antidepressants telling them it is their depression causing their pain.

It is you dear doctor that is causing their depression. How? Well when people are in pain they beleive the doctor will do everything they can to ease their suffering and when the doctor fails to treat their pain or take it seriously the patient is sent out the door with no hope.

What are the patients options? Well they can go to the ER on a regular basis and be emotionally abused some more by the staff and then marked as a drug abuser or at the least made to feel that way.

Or they could just go home and commit suicide. I have read several stories on people with Fibromyalgia who have commited suicide and if you would like to hear one of them just go to youtube and look up Fibromyalgia and suicide.

People with Fibromyalgia are very lucky when they find a caring doctor but they are few and far between.

Doctor if you had to live one ay in the life of a person with Fibromyalgia I garauntee that your approach on this matter would change greatly. You would become obsessed with finding a cure and in the meantime bring as much releife to those suffering from Fibromyalgia as possible.

It is not fun to wake up with a head ache, stiff back, sore legs, sore stiff kneck, and pain shooting through out every joint, muscle and bone of your body. To top it off your tired because the sleep you did have was not refreshing enough or you could only sleep a couple of hours because the pain didn't let up.

I ask you does this sound pleasant? Does it sound like something that you should just learn to live with.

I ask you what would it feel like to break your leg and dislocate a shoulder and go to work and act as though everything is fine. Wouldn't the pain be to much?

Well for allot of people with Fibromyalgia the pain is to much and when the patients cry the doctors are not moved in any way to find their patient, the one they are suppose to be CARING for a good treatment plan to treat their pain.

Some doctors say oh Lyrica it's the Fibromyalgia miracle drug. I can tell you doctor that it is not the case at all. It might help some people, but it doesn't help as many as you all would like us to beleive. Frankly for most it causes more problems than it's worth.

This whol exercise and loose weight thing is for the birds too! Can you beleive that allot of people suffering from fibromyalgia were thin or at least at a healthy weight before they were left to suffer.

People with fibromyalgia are not looking for an easy way out as some nurses and doctors beleive.  I know I have read through doctors and nurses blogs. I see what they think of people sufferinf from fibromyalgia. They think we want disability and that we want to be on drugs.

Well I can tell you doctor that my doctors office doesn't write out narcotic pain medciation and if that was what I was after I could have easily change to a doctor I know that will. Also if I was afterdisability I would already have applied since I have not been able to work in more than a year.

I keep hoping that I will find the help I need so that I can go back to work and resume as much of anormal life as possible.

I have played the guinea pig for far to long and have been made very sick several times in the process. I'm tired of this. I know what works for me, but dare I ask and have you think I'm a drug abuser.

I know what works for me because times when I have had UTI pain and been given pain medication for it. I used those pain meds to treat my Fibromyalgia pain and guess what doctor I felt good for the short time I had them. As in good I mean normal, I could clean my own home, sleep at night, and if that was my regular medication I could have possibly even went back to work.

I'll keep quite though for fear if I mention one thing particular that I know will help you will automaically assume I'm addicted to this particular drug and my pain would never stand a chance of beinf treated or taken seriously.

So for now I'm your little guinea pig doctor.

How long will it take you to realise that all you have to do is give me pain medicine and I could be able to function.

Drug test me I don't care, but you might be surprised to learn I have no drugs in my system and also you might be surprised if you do a back ground check and see that I have never had a drug problem!

sincerely your guinea pig,

A fibromyalgia sufferer

This is just a rant of sorts

May 04
2008

Sweating and Fake Sun Burn

I now have a very red upper back. It looks as though it's a really bad sun burn but it is covered in hives. I am sweating so bad. Maybe I'm sweating that medicine out now that Ihave the Prednisone in me now. My back feels like I just put allot of icyhot on it or something and it's very hot to the touch.

I'm still itching and I hope this will pass quickly! I'm calling the pain clinic tomarrow and asking them what to do now. I hope they don't tell me to wait until our next appointment.Heck I don't even have the gas to drive out of town to pick up a perscription even if they do put me on something else.

I called the pharmacy five days before I needed my Ultram ER just like the pain management doctor told me to do. Well now it needs a doctors authorization and I only have one pill left! I hope they can get that taken care of quickly or I will be back at square one again!

I hope that I'm not having an allergic reaction to the prednisone too because I'm feeling really hot since I took it and my back wasn't that red until I took it!

I really hope that my body isn't going through some kind of weird change and I'm becoming allergic to everything!

I don't feel very well at all. My back is starting to hurt really bad!

I feel full of energy and I havn't had much sleep, I wonder if this could be the prednisone making me feel like this?

May 04
2008

I'm making a video!

I'm still itching, but I have the cell phone now so I can call my doctor. At least I'm not itching as bad, but it's still annoying.

I'm workingon a video for Fibromyalgia awarness day. It's just going to be an informative video listing what it is, symptoms, and the way people feel what we go through. It might be more than one video long as you can only post 10 minute videos on youtube. I don't care how long it has to be but I want the message out there. I want people to know of our suffering and I want them to be aware that they might also have it if they are expereincing these things and their doctors can't find a problem. Then I'm going to tell them about this site!

My upper back is starting to hurt really bad again, and I'm already going into pain mode. Oh well at least I had a small break eventhough my arthritis was driving me crazy.

I'm not sure what they will do with me now. I'm not going to stress about it though. I'm hopeful that we will figure out something.

May 03
2008

I'm going To Scratch my eyes out!

I can't freakin beleive it! I'm allergic to my pain medcine. I did feel a little itchy yesterday but nothing like this. I figured it was because its a narcotic pain medication.

My head hurts and my bones hurt really bad and I wasn't feeling sick but now I'm starting but I think it's just because I'm upset again. I'm not going to have any hair left by the time I'm done scratching it all out!

My eyes itch  like crazy inside the eyeball! This is insane!

I am only allergic to codiene as and now Fentynal. I don't know what they will put me on now.

I'm going to cry if they tell me I have to wait until my next appointment before I can get something else!

May 01
2008

Put My Fentynal Patch On

Well I put my Fentynal patch on almost one hour ago. So far I havn't noticed a difference.

I'm still hurting, but I guess I have to give it time.

They started me on a low dose, but what these people don't realize is when I was 17 years old and weighed 120 lbs it took enough anisthesea(sp?) to knock out a 300 lb man to put me under. I hope this will work for me.

My friend talked to someone she knows who has Fibromyalgia and she said that her friend was put on this patch and it did'nt work for her so she had to go on something stronger.

I told one of my friends on the internet that they put me on the patch because it is hard to abuse even though I take drug tests for them and I don't have a history of drug abuse.

I'm a little agrivated by the fact that I am being treated like I would abuse my medication when I have no criminal record or medical record of drug abuse.

I'm going to talk to the pain doctor about beinf taken off the patch and put on something I can take orally on my next visit.

One thing that makes me look bad is that I'm allergic to codeine and when some medical staff see this they think drug abuser. I read that some place on the internet.

I go to the Orthopedic Sergion tomarrow and I don't know what he will want to do with me. I know I'm in allot of pain and don't really want to walk anymore so I hope they will be able to do something long lasting! I would love to be able to go for walks without my legs killing me!

I hope I can find this place ok. It's in my states capitol and I don't know my way around there at all. One of my moms friends is suppose to some over and tell me how to get there but he might have forggoten because she asked him two hours ago when he was in the neighborhood and I havn't heard from him yet. He's from Indianapolis so he knows the area!

I'm not sure what to expect tomarrow. I'm still waiting for my blood work to come back. I wonder if the doctor will call me if I have RA? Probably not.

I'm feeling really tired but I always do this time of the day.

My biggest fear is that this patch will break or leak and I will OD.

I don't like taking pain meds and I told my mom that once I get this weight off and maybe the sergion can help me somehow I can get off the pain meds again. I'm just afraid that once I get off the pain meds that if I ever need them again it will take another two years to get them!

My pain doctor told me she was going to help releive my pain and I'm depending on her to keep her promise.

I have a knot in my arm that I'm terribly worried about, but my doctor thinks it's my muscle, it's not! I wish I was thin again so that people could feel things easier!

Oh well this has been long and I will post tomarrow when this patch is flowing through my sysytem pretty good and write how my pain has hopefully decreased!

Apr 30
2008

Morning

Whats strange is that ever since I have been taking my Ultram ER 100mg, I have had a headache. I really hope that it's not connected. I havn't really noticed a difference in theUltram. I'm going up to 200mg on Friday though so maybe that will change.

I'm going to my doctor this morning to get my BP checked. It was so high when I was at the pain clinic that they told me to go to my doctor or to an ED.

This will be my second or third time going to my doctor about my BP. Everytime I'm in my Doctors office it is fine.

I'm so tired and have been loaded down by the pain clinic with all this crap.

Umm, don't they know I have chronic fatigue? Jeez and everytime I do to much I get these terrible migraines. My pain doctor said that they are tension headaches.

I have one to many appointments coming up and I hope I can swing it.If I get more than I can handle going I usually start canceling appointments and loosing doctors because I just can't keep up.

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