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Starving

May 16 2012

My life is getting 90% worse and 10% better. I've started to starve myself. I don't care about consequenses. My mom brought home McDonald's today. I started to eat 1 french fry. Mom wassitting by me so I just ate them slowly. When I was eating my burger I just started eating the salad first, hoping she wouldn't notice. She started to notice that I wasn't eating the entire burger so she stared at me. I ate it. I could feel my reflexes in my throat. I wanted to vomit so badly.  I'm just trying to stick with 1 carrot and 1 apple a day. And of course I only drink water. As for my possible bipolar disorder, I'm meeting with a clinic in next week I think. Having to explain my life story again. They want to help with my depression which I've been battleing since I was 8-9. I haven't been on here for a while. I thought I could just keep living. Hoping things would get better. They didn't.  Look at me now.  Starving myself without caring if it'll mean I can die from it. I'm not religious but someone, please pray.

Ida 



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written by Zetsubou, May 17, 2012
I really know nothing about anorexia... I wish I had some useful advice for you. Is there anyone you're seeing about your anorexia? (i.e. is the clinic willing to help you with it?)

I'm not really religious either - so I'll send a hug instead of praying smilies/smiley.gif, but I really, really hope things'll improve for you!

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