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Feb 24
2008
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I just freaked out...BIG time...
There's a guy that I really love...and he's been saying he loves me too for about 3 months now...well, about a week ago, we were talking and he said hestill had feelings for his ex, and he also like another girl....so for the rest of the time we were on the phone, I pretty much just sat there, and said "mhmmm", "yeah.." or "ok.." to everything...he didn't really seem to notice it bothered me, and I didn't want to upset him more, so I just didn't say anything...
Recently she started going out with another guy the she DUMPED HIM FOR and he went to pieces...I just told him she wasn't worth his time and tried not to show that it upset me...
I've put up with it...I've cried every night, as soon as we got off the phone..but I dealt with it.
But tonight...I don't know...something inside me just snapped..and I lost it...we weren't even talking about her...he was upset, and I kept asking what was wrong, and he said not to worry about it after saying he was upset..and it just..pissed me off..I went off on how you don't tell someone you're upset, then don't tell them why..and he got quiet for a while, then finally asked me what I did over the weekend...I asked him if he really wanted to know...and he said he did so I said I thought about EVERYTHING until I wanted to blow my brains out so it would stop...and it's true...I just didn't tell him that he was the everything...
And he was quiet for a second, then said "oooo" and was more quiet...and said something about him not even caring enough to say more than that, and he said he loved me...
So I burst out crying. And went into full-fledged rage, saying he didn't love me, he loved jessy. So he tells me he doesn't "love her. well, not as much, anyway" shit...what is THAT?
I'm SICK and TIRED of guys that can't decide between one girl, and the next...so after I pretty much cussed at nothing, he says he has to go and leaves..and I've been here, wishing it was over for about an hour...
Any advice? Because I doubt he'll EVER talk to me again...and can you blame him?....
written by marsha6751, February 24, 2008
written by zinnia, February 24, 2008
seriously this guy sounds messed up!!
Do you really want to be second best to some other girl or the next pretty girl that catches his attension?? everybody diserves so much more than playing second best to a x or a pretty new toy.
And you are no exception.
My advice... Say to him we can be friends and talk but what you did to me is unexceptable you have no right to play with other peoples emosions and expect them to sit on the fence waiting for you to make up your mind... I am sorry it was so blunt but seriously you are better than being made to wait for someone to decide how they feel from one mood to the next or not.
Dont ever play second best.. Trust me it never ends well im talking from experience... been there done that got the tshirt and well now i am the first to my hubby and im never letting this one go anywhere.
marsha6751