Hi, well my name is Kadii im 16 at the moment but my story starts when i was about 8. i went to a family bbq and my cousin just started touching me for no reason. i was only 8 and had no understandingto what was happening to me. this went on every birthday in the family, christmas, easter evertime i saw him it would happen. i had no escape my mum loved him like a son and he would stay over all the time. one time i was in the shower and he somehow got in and started feeling me i wanted to scream and kick but my whole body just froze up. the first time i realised what he was doing was wrong was when i read a book about a girl who was going through what he was doing to me and i realised that it was wrong. i didnt wanna say anything to my mum cuz he told me he would kill me if i ever said anything. i told my best friend and school after she saw hinm touching me one day.

she told me that i had to tell someone but i was so scared of what he would do as he was 4 years older then me. finally when i was 12 i wrote a letter to my mum saying what was going on but i never mentioned the name and i put it in my school bag and i was supposed to throw it out but forgot and mum found it one night and she came into my room asking hu it was and wen i told her we both broke down in tears. my mum has supported me throughout everything although telling tore my family apart i wouldnt go back because now he can never touch me or anyone else again. i have had sexual relationships since it happened but none that i ever stay with the guy because all i can see is my cousins face. i attempted suicide once and ended up in hospital for 8 weeks thats when i found out i had post traumatic stress disorder but since then i have been diagnosed with Bipolar anyone who may be able to give me advice or support please message me!