My sister Jill

Jill and Dad all gone in a year :*( Well it's been a long long time since i have been on here...why thats a good question. Dealing with my dad fighting lung cancer has been hard but i have tried tolean on my family more. My dad was such a fighter. I don't know how he did it...well maybe Jill gave him strength? Not sure. He looked so good on sunday...i was so positive he was going to fight it a little longer. Now i know he just wanted us all to be in a good place when he left. I'm still in shock and not sure what to think..even when you know someone is dying when it happens you are not ready. He told me he believed in god and a better place and it made him be in a better place and he was ready for whatever happened. I wish i could have 30 more years with him. I guess Jill needed him more than we did. Well we are all strong and we can get through this together it is going to take a long long time to heal...or at least scab over. How can you get others to learn from your experience??? thats a good question maybe i need to figure it out maybe then i can get others to feel more love and compassion for the people around them like my dad did.  I was talking to my husband and said you know those people that say there lives suck....jump in my shoes for a day quit complaining it could be so much worse. And even i realize that my life doesn't suck...why because it could be so much worse. I have realized also though that i have no patience for those people and i know im going to have to work on that. They don't know any different. Wish i could change things that have happened in my life...but no ones life is perfect and mine sure as heck is bumpy. Love you so much dad keep the family company up there we miss you so much. Love you and now to start the healing.