My sister Jill

Well had a meltdown last night. Feeling a little selfish. I shouldn't be worrying about me being happy. I should be more worried about losing my dad and the loss of my sister. I know jill wouldnt want me to think this way. Had a good talk with hubby he made me feel better. We talked about all the things we loved about you jill. And all the things we didn't love...but in the end we love as well. Once it's gone you realise the things that we didnt love ...we still miss. If i could hear your laugh one more time, or how you used to flap your arms when you were frustrated or thought you were so funny, the big bear hugs and goofy grins, the well whatevers and the well thats life, the crazy clothes capries in winter, the crazy hair and oh wells, the rock hard cookies cause you didnt follow a recipe, and the bread that tasted like crap but we smiled and ate it anyhow only to recieve a whole other loaf since we loved it so much. I wish i could have more of those days and i miss every bit of them. Thanks for the ride Jill. Miss you tons send me some hugs from heaven.