|Apr 28 2012|
I keep trying to fight my diagnosis...My first Dx was a little over ten years ago. Borderline Personality Disorder. A few years ago I started hearing "Bipolar" and this last Januarywhen I was hospitalized I heard a word I wasnt familar with AT ALL. "Psychosis." I got angry last week at my boss and co-worker, I have been throwing things at work and walking out of the kitchen because everything frusterates me. I have absolutly no attention span, and all I can do is hope that this next month that I have to wait to see a dr to get back on my meds goes by quickly. June 1st, that was the next available slot to pencil me in. I have never been so anti social, but the delusions can be pretty tolling on the relationships. I am s grateful that my boss, who I consider my friend as well, has a been understanding and shows conern when he sees me start to slip. I show up late to work, I throw attitude in every direction...I feel dettached from the world. I would like to say that that is not me, but I dont feel like I know anything about who "me" even is.
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