My Rollercoaster

My life is hell right now!!! I finally broke down and hired a lawyer and I am scared about that too. I have no idea about lawyers and went with a referral from a majortalk radio law show host and now I'm running into negative reviews about the law firm on the internet. None of the complaints are regarding family law but I'm still scared. I have been doing no contact with my husband for 9 weeks now except to text him every once in a while when he tries to reach out to me in a none threatening manner and remind him that I will not communicate with him unless WE can go to the doctor. My son is texting him often throughout the day. The texting my husbands sends out is at times down right incoherent and seems to be part of an incomplete thought. I no longer trust my husband with my son, he plays too many games. He is not bringing him home when he goes to work or following OUR agreement, (not legal) he was not allowing my son to call or text me while in his possession. I just can't live like that anymore.

My husband is still very paranoid. He is telling everyone that I left the state. He is stalking my workplace and so there is all kinds of commotion and drama happening there now.  He is saying that he wants to talk to me, but I believe it is to yell and make it clear that he is angry about not being able to see his son. So I have to stay far away and escape out opposite doors to avoid the confrontation with the help of my work friends. I do not park my car in the work place parking lot.

My husband came out to my house three nights ago with a locksmith at 1:15 in the morning to get inside. We have not been staying there for the past two weeks. I have clear visible notices in the windows telling locksmiths not to gain entry or change any locks without permission first and to call my cell phone number. This was on the advice of my locksmith. It didn't work and is supposed to be illegal for a locksmith to do this with notice. This is the third time I had to change locks to my house. My husband moved out a year ago. My neighbor called me to let me know that this was happening.

My son and I are staying at a friends house while she is on a month long vacation, my husband has no idea where we are. I am trying to avoid my husband until my lawyer gets some orders filed. I believe that it is possible that my husband has already started filing something about custody too. He sent me a text message on July 3rd telling me I had to be at the courthouse on July 7th and see a family counselor. I didn't listen to him because of who was telling me this. Then according to my neighbor a car was spotted sitting in front of my house last Saturday for an hour and the man sitting inside was taking pictures of my house. She called the police and the car took off before they got there. No one has showed up at my work place except for my husband, so I don't know what is going on.

I love my husband very much and I hope he will get help one day soon. He is going back and forth saying he is going to make an appt. and even sounds like he has called to make an appt. by some of the questions that he texted me about making the appt. but it still has not happened yet.

My hope is that I can get some life back without the drama soon. I hope I didn't just hire a money hungry law firm who doesn't do anything for you except collect money like what is posted on the internet.