My road to freedom

I am so tired of everything around me... Simple stresses of parenthood to the bigger ones that my husband causes. He knows I have severe trust issues and he just continues to go on about his ways... Lying.. Hiding money.. How long can I continue to live this way? How long do you stay when you love the person but don't trust them at all when they're out of your sight. I'm not sure it can work that way... I really am at a point where I'm lost. I've been here a while.. Just don't know what to do about it. Stopped going to the counselor...She just kept repeating herself and pissing me off. Things seem so easy to everyone else who isn't experiencing it. But whatever. I go on Monday to see a psychologist for my SS claim.. This should be interesting. The last time I went I seen this same person and he scared the hell out of me. So We shall see.