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My reflections on love... - sugarluv's Diary

Oh, these endless nights.... Who is this man? All I have are photographs that seem to tell a story of the life of a troubled youth through to his adulthood. I can see he is different, special. He is beautiful in appearance and yet when I look in his eyes something is missing, they seem unhappy, there is something unfulfilled, a basic need.

Mental illness left undiagnosed can cause so much anguish. Sometimes just knowing what is wrong can help us fight another day.

The pictures chronicle his early adult life. I see in him unconditional, self sacrificing love for his son. In fact, it shows in his son. He looks so happy, so adorable. He seems bathed in love like Jehovah meant for us all to be...

This man appears to be such a loving, dedicated father and very affectionate. Why is this so hard for most men to show to their children? My earliest memories of my father were happy times, he was affectionate and loving. This is so necessary for children.

As the years go by, the unhappiness seems to become more apparent in him. His looks change, his weight is up and then down. The funny thing is, whether he is slender or muscular/stocky he looks gorgeous, esp. when he is muscular with extra weight, very sexy. Sorry, got off topic.

If only I could give someone back the years they lost... that is my ultimate wish. But I can help them to flourish and prosper now through showing true love. Without it, the human spirit is just broken. It is just existing but it is not living.

Living without love for a period of time makes you appreciate what a beautiful, precious gift it is, in fact, in my opinion, it is the most important lesson to learn about life because without it life just isn't worth living.

If I love again, it will be with my whole heart, it is a gift, such a privelege to have and yet people throw it away so easily.

All I have are photographs but since a picture is worth a thousand words, I am sure I will have more insightful thoughts to write in my diary. Bye for now

"You say you're happy and you're doin' fine
Well go ahead, baby, I got plenty of time
Sad eyes never lie-" Enrique Iglesias

Jul 05

2008

Missing someone desperately....

Not much exciting going on in my life. In fact, I'm walking around with a lump in my throat. I am missing someone so much. Unfortunately, I am all too familiar with this type of pain. I dont know if that helps or not. So I am reading letters from him and looking at his pictures. I think this is making me feel worse cause I am reading about years of endless anguish, lonliness and fear. But that is all I have right now...Also I am praying about this situation cause there is nothing else that can be done right now. I am 34 and I will say this much, my heart has been broken too many times. If it happens this time it will be the last time, I'm gonna see to that.

Do you remember once upon a time?
When you were mine
The stars above were bright and new
I pulled them down for you
Just when I fell in love again
You said that all good things must end

Just the Way It Is, Baby- The Rembrandts

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Some good things never end.
written by JeffDavis2134, July 07, 2008

Don't dwell on the negative past but wgat you have today and what you can change today. How does reliving pain preserved in letters serve a useful purpose. Pray for serenity and usefulness. Look forwards. (Phil.4:8,9)

Some good things never end.