My pain

Lost in life
Current mood: sad
Category: Life

I feel so lost....where is this life taking me...where am I going....gosh this pain is so overwhelming....Junior I wish you were here....you never left my side....always there when I was at my lowest.......Mijo please help me find the way out of this.......Today I take you flowers ......I think I am going on my own this time........I think it's time I cry there...instead of trying to hold things in.........I honestly do not have the will power to live....I really don't....I know people will say well you have your kids........I know I do........that is something I can not just forget......but at my lowest points ..I know they also have there dad.........no matter what he is there dad..........I'm so scared of myself at times.....I need to find peace.......I need to learn to have faith again in god or something.......I'm just lost.