My not sure if I have Lyme Diary

Tired as hell, took alteril about 45 mins ago. My lower back is getting worse, maybe from that long ass walk? My knee just suddenly felt fine. Got to get up early to go get my car and some more thingsfrom Jenn's place and say hi to Scrappy! Ate pepper steak for dinner with my family. Drank about 8 or 9- 32 oz nalgenes of water today. I think I drink too much water, yet I always feel thirsty. I got some pain in my neck on the left side, maybe a lymph node? Doesn't seem swollen. Standing in front a full length mirror naked today before I took a shower, I was like Holy Sh*&! Fading away, down to 205ish, was 199 last week, but was 227 when I quit the grains and sugar maybe 10 weeks ago. I found these videos on youtube today with this chick, Lyme Chick. I learned a lot, and damn this girl is hot! I could watch her videos all day. I got some bath salts and I'm going to start drinking mineral water with lemon. I'm not messing with any kind of tea though, I don't want to end up in a cardiac center again. I'm going to GNC tomorrow to get some DHEA, I think I have no Testosterone left. I get teary eyed watching survivor even. Pathetic! When I went to St. Vincents in Bridgeport, CT back in 1998ish I started to get fatigue really bad and they put me on NADH or something like that. After about 30 days I remember saying I could run through a brick wall and keep going. I can't believe I have to wait 2 months to talk to a doctor who probably thinks lyme disease is something you get from eating too many green freezy pops. I know I'm gone, I just walked out of a 22 year relationship and don't even care or think about her, it's been about a week. Listening to Tony Robbins today, he said the definition of insanity is the act of doing the same things over and over and expecting a different result. I'm Insane! Can't see straight any more, bed time YAWN! :)