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grandmasylvia"MDJ has been "a soft place to fall" for me as Dr Phil says. I have this very painful rare disease Dercum's Disease and take comfort in finding others here who share their knowledge and compassion. Many
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habdab6067 I am going though a living nightmare and I want to wake up.


Mar 18 2012
I miss him. I miss him. I sit and think and I miss him. I just want to know, I just want confirmation about whether he ever thinks of me, or what. Has he hated me so much I am out of his life? I wish I knew. I wish that I could somehow get in his mind and try to figure things out. I just need to know whther he hates me or not. If I had that answer then my life could become new and I would just accept or have to accept the new normal. How could someone that I gave life to hate me so much he wanted to kill me? My mother called me a fuck up on numerous occassions. Every family has a black sheep, I am ours. I thought I did something so right by giving him life, but in the end somewhere along the line I fucked up. I had gotten the suicide thoughts out of my head but now for some unknown reason they just came back.  I wish there was just a life switch just like a light switch. Turn it on and you live life, shut it off and your life ends. My switch is now half way there, in the balance.

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