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My Life With Fibro

A record of my days because I forget so much.

September 23, 2011 Reunion

Sep 23 2011

So, this weekend is my 30th class reunion. I find it hard to believe that I have been out of high school for 30 years. It feels like I just graduated. Now my son is 21 and in college and my daughter, who is my baby, is 18 and about to graduate herself this year. How did this happen?

This weekend is homecoming weekend, and tonight is the homecoming game. Everyone is meeting for the game and then going out for drinks after. I know I can't do the game. It's cold and damp and I don't do well with that combination. I don't know if I will meet them for drinks or not. I'm not really a drinker, and I don't want to drive home late. We live about 20 minutes away from my hometown, so its not far, but far enough if I have been drinking.

Tomorrow they are having a golf outing, a motorcycle ride and bag toss tournament in the afternoon and the dinner in the evening. My class had a band that played together for several years, even into college years. They have gotten back together for the event and will be playing at the dinner. I'm looking forward to it, but not feeling like I can handle it.

I have been feeling really bad the last couple of weeks. The fibro is kicking my butt! Last month I was feeling pretty good and felt like I might be past the worst part of this thing. Now I'm hurting and feeling really depressed about it, and feeling old to boot. I'm almost 50. My kids will be gone soon. I'm in constant pain. I just want to crawl into a corner and die.

Boy, I sure will be the life of THIS party, wont I!

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written by scorpioj, September 23, 2011

Hard to believe how quickly the time passes. You could meet for drinks and just have coke or gingerale then driving home wouldn't be a worry. I agree with you on skipping anything that involves cold and damp-lol. You could just meet them for dinner (bypassing the athletic pursuits) and enjoy the band. Just suggestions to consider.I know the feeling. My adult children are 25 and 21 and I am 51, soon to be 52. Being in constant pain is hard enough on us,but adding to this our children getting ready to leave is alot of stress. I think the best thing to help make you feel younger is to learn something new, a language(can find Spanish online), a new hobby(growing herbs), join a group(theatre) anything that appeals to you. You will feel younger being involved in something that you can talk to others about and share your knowledge of,it keeps you current and part of the community. If you just stay at home and clean the house it is depressing and you feel disconnected from the world. Once your kids go you will need something to keep you actively engaged in the world,why not start the transition now?? There is no time like the present to re-invent yourself. I think just deciding to pursue something of interest to you will help lift the depression. Whatever you do-don't crawl into a corner and die.I know you don't mean that literally,but sometimes we just want to keep a really low profile and not be involved much with the outside world, so we cocoon at home. that is what I have been doing,but I will soon join society again. So you can do it for awhile,as long as you know it is for the short term. Find your inspiration and passion,pursue it, then go to the party and have fun. You will be the life of the party in a good way!!
Hugs,energy,healing in abumdance,
scorpioj