My life with Add

God , Vacoomay is all that I  have  some times .  The journey that  my thoughts take me on with my angels  is what i know will keep  me content .   Some timesthough I cant always escape into  my thoughts and close myself off to  the world and pretend no one is there . I  need to  live in the reallness  of things . Its just so hard though .  There has been  so many shelfish  thoughts of suicide and so  many feelings of displesure that  my world seems small  and unbearable . I dont know what to do so times . Its almost as if i lost track  of you and my beliefe that things are better when your near . because when your not or i loose that beliefe like I  have been for the last couple days or even in times when i  cry my life seems so hard and so unbearable . I  want something more . I need you back in  my life . please .