Today will be the first day of my life for the rest of my life I decide to take my life in hand and run with it. It is my life and no one else I will decide what I am going to do and not some sickness that try to keep me down for the count! http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/my-life-starting-today Thu, 23 May 2013 20:06:43 +0100 FeedCreator 1.7.2 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/my-life-starting-today/sitting-here-with-the-wife-sister-an-my-doctor-what-the-hell-was-i-thinking &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;Sitting in the doctor office today with my wife and older sister and doctor what the hell was I thinking I musta&nbsp;been stone out of my mind. I mean boy did I get torn out of &nbsp;the frame. Doctors putting IV&#39;s in the arm trying not to go to the ER and stay there all day and night. At the same time listen to what the Doc is saying and what these other two women aresaying and telling my doc. Boy I knew that I needed help but not that bad I though that if I agreed to t [...] Buckchaser57 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/my-life-starting-today/its-me-again-175696 <p>&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;It&#39;s me again just sitting here today thinking an wondering what would happen to me next. It&#39;s that time again for me to get that tube check and see if the doctors are going to give me my med&#39;s back again. For about 3 yrs&nbsp;now I haven&#39;t had any med&#39;s and lord knows just how hard it has been. For me there is no other thing than right now that I want to do is to start feeling&nbsp;better and feeling&nbsp;like my old self.<br /></p><img src="http://img [...] Buckchaser57 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/my-life-starting-today/just-plain-old-me <p>It&#39;s just plain old me sitting an wandering what the hell was I thinking of when I let them put me out to pasture. Yes what the hell was I thinking of when the doctors told me that that I had to retire an not work any more must been all the dollar signs that they said would be coming in around the 3rd of each month. &nbsp;Boy was I a dump ass to believe that load of horse sh-t I need to kick my own behind for believing that bull.</p><p>I get less money now to live on now than when I was w [...] Buckchaser57 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/my-life-starting-today/just-hanging-on <p>&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;I am just hanging on they way it seem to me; everyday there is this same feeling of wanting to feel better but can&#39;t. Yesterday I visited the hospital for about 6 hours in the ER. Things had gotten to the point couldn&#39;t eat or drink anything and lord know that if you saw me a couple of year ago I weighted about 250 to 280 right now, about &nbsp;150 to 125. Everything is falling off my ass &nbsp;from pants that has gotten to big and shirts that fit like a night shir [...] Buckchaser57 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/my-life-starting-today/i-am-here-just-like-that-old-timex-i-am-still-ticking Just like that old Timex that sit in the drawer that next to the bed which is next to the nitestand. I am still ticking like a model T or a 57 Chevy. There be times that I am down an out but there give up on me cause I will be there to the very end of time.<br /><img src="http://img1.funscrape.com/en/BeYourself/9.gif" border="0" alt="" /><br /><br />More Be Yourself Comments Today was the day that I will alway remember in my lifetime as the day that I didn&#39;t have to ask for help. 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