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"The part of my recovery plan that I would say made up 80% is MDJ. I suffered a lot prior to finding MDJ, felt alone and had no one to talk to who really understood me. In the Bipolar Group I found like minded individuals who I could relate to and who offered support to me when I needed it. As I recovered, I could then offer support to them which gave me a good feeling about myself. I have met some great people here who I would class as good friends and know I would still be in the slump I was in without them. Now I am stable, I know that MDJ plays an important part in keeping me that way. Thank you MDJ for being there for us all and making us no longer feel alone." (liamacker)

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My Journey Through Agoraphobia

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Down Again

Oct 02 2010

I was so excited to go see the pastor this morning to schedule my baptism. My mother was going to take me to a church not too far away, but in the opposite direction of where we usually go. He was waiting there for us. But dammit I could even get in the car. I stood there a nervous wreck for 40 minutes while my mom tried to persuade me to get in the car! I was crying and feeling nauseous, it was terrible. Finally she cut the car off and let me go back inside. What has this disorder done to me? I didn't think I had all that much freedom to begin with, and now it's taking what little I had left!

I am so discouraged. Devastated. I need to find a way to feel empowered, like I know I can control this. But it's hard to feel that way when this anxiety is most humbling.

Just wanted to vent. Hope you all are doing well. God bless you

With love,

Tyler

Previous diary posts by YouAreLoved:

Good Day Out
Rough Ride
Bad panic attack today
A Bit of Progress
Starting Over In My Recovery

The Consequence of Having it My Way
Update
Big Day Tomorrow
Received My Disability Money Today
What to do?

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written by Conn65, October 03, 2010

Tyler, don't ever let your set backs define you or make you lose sight of your accomplishments. There are going to be good and bad times with this. When you have a set back don't let yourself dwell on it. Replace the thought immediately with a positive. Keep a notebook of positive thoughts daily. Even if it is as simple as you walked to the mailbox today.

wishing you all the best,
Connie