My Journey Through Agoraphobia

Just a little update for my records. Things have been okay over here. I'm slowly getting my college stuff ready for my classes next month, Theology and Bible. I've been on a diet too, sinceI'm back up to 311lbs. It wasn't as hard as I thought it'd be. I'm enjoying cooking for myself and feeling good about my control over my eating habits. Though I have increased my nicotine use. That's the next thing I want to kick.

As far as my anxiety, it has been up and down. We're having to surrender one of our cars, so they bought a used mini-van that will take some getting used to. I've been a bit more avoidant, but I believe eventually I'll be back out again. Sometimes I don't worry about my condition and feel I have accepted it. Other times I feel like David facing Goliath and I can't find a stone for my sling. I pray about it daily. The Lord has supported me, comforted me, and counseled me. I'm waiting on Him, remembering Isaiah 43:18-19

"Do not remember past events, pay no attention to the things of old. Look, I am about to do something new; even now it is coming. Do you not see it? Indeed, I will make a way in the wilderness, rivers in the desert."

Praise the Lord, my heart is full of the hope given by Christ. I'm lost, but He will make the way. I'm thirsty, but He is bringing rain. He will pour out rivers of love in this desert. Allelujah

My love is with all of you in Christ Jesus