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"My father suffers from MS." (stacers4165)

MDJunction to me

"When I found MD Junction, I was in the beginning stages of RSD/CRPS. I was scared, lacked knowledge about the condition, and felt very alone.

MD Junction changed all of that for me. I found friendship and terrific information from people who had first-hand knowledge of this syndrome. It was and still is a big part of my life.

MDJ was my first step on the journey of grief; from denial to acceptance. I am now inspired to help others by sharing this amazing site and sharing my own experiences. I am very impressed that one forum site can provide hope and inspiration to people suffering from so many different conditions. I am proud to be a part of this community.
~ Jenny" (jpcrps)

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My Journey

This is my quest. To find a better place where i am in control of my life

One day at a time

May 29 2012

"One day at a time" that is the mantra I hear from so many.... easier said then done. My mind flashes forward to things that were going to happen but now may or may not. It is so hard to stayin the moment as things that either remind you of the past and how that image that you thought was real is shattered. So many things that happened that I explained away as the wife's depression were in reality her coming off her drug of choice and not having the opportunity to get more till she went back to work. I didnt think i was such a bad judge of chacter till now. I really need to stop beating myself up but it is hard not to. I did do everything i could but addicts will go to great lengths to get their fix.

So What now? I plan on taking inventory of my life once she is in the hosp. I think it will happen this week but these things dont happen overnight for us common people. If she was a famous person she would be whisked off to a very private rehab spa where she could get a massage between therapy sessions.

I dont wish ill on anyone but why do I hope it is like an army boot camp. So maybe she can come to terms with just how she has hurt so many people.

So I throw it out to all of you... tell me. Am I wrong? Am I right?

What should my next move be? I am flying by the seat of my pants.

Previous diary posts by myepiphany:

The Doorway
The affects

the journey

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written by tigerstripe6, June 27, 2012

whatever you feel right now is right. and i don't blame you for wanting her to be in a boot camp. wish my b/f would go for that too. stay strong and wait and see if there are noticable changes when she gets to rehab. if you like what you see, then try and support her and decide if this is a person you want to be with. does she have any other supports? you may be it for her. rehab may just show a changed person, who knows? you can hope right? trust your gut, it always tells the truth. keri. smilies/cool.gif