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Just what goes through my head i guess. Sometimes its the auto-ban, sometimes its rush hour, but most of the time it is just some 25mph trip through a rusted up ghost town.

My cutting

Dec 05 2008

has been getting worse and worse lately and i don't know why. Like im on prozac and that helped before. and i also have been seeing a couselor person. But my cutting has been becoming more and moreintense and i need it nearly everyday. Where as before id be alright for nearly 3 or 4 days before i needed it again. I don't know why this is happening. But i don't like it. It kept me from donating blood yesterday. and the guilt of that made me cut again, and really bad, there was blood all over...i don't know what i am going to do. like i feel really lost and alone right now

Previous diary posts by betteroffgone:

Last night
I just want to die
I wish i had the guts
I have started to feel better
if i were gone

i am such an idiot
i really just think it would be a favor to the wor...
i am fucking sick
i think i am going to do it
i know how it needs to be done

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written by Ebbtide, December 05, 2008

*Hugs* I am so sorry that you are going through this. I have found that my cutting would increase when I was introduced to a new stress - even something that is not "typically" grouped in the stressful genre of life. It is scary and for me it would last until I could figure out what triggered it to begin with. Then I could rectify the situation. If you need to talk, you can PM me. *Hugs*. You aren't alone. Know that.