My first experience with SSRi drugs

I must say i wan't really expecting much to happen even though I am always open and concentrated on my feelings an physical senses.  I must say I was a bit more positive today, despite stayingawake almost all night because of my crying daughter.  I am a little sceptical that a drug like this starts working right away, and am looking at this as a placebo effect, which is infact the best kind of mecicine :)

So, positive today, and not so prone to negativity.  But I look at the very good weather, my interaction with more people as a big contributing factor. I am looking forward to seeing how I will sleep tonight, and also to continuing taking the drug.

 I am also starting to listen to  "The Mindful Way Through Depression".  So far an absolutely wonderful program, that does thing very systematically, and for me who has a lot of experience with meditation it made me re-think how I approach meditation.  And my "illness" has a lot to do with the "wrong" way I have been doing things.

 I did also get a comment today suggesting I look into bipolar disorder, and according to the psych nurse it could also be cyclothymia.  I am not ruling anything out at this point and am looking forward to doing a real psych eval.